If you ever meet and talk to me for the first time, I am the sweetest person ever; like so many other people who unconsciously made a mask to blend into society, regardless of their beliefs. So of course, I made friends with people who are just as twisted from insanity on the inside as I am.

Why did I bother to tell you that useless piece of information? Well frankly, I'm not so sure either when I could've just straight up told that two of my closest (and one of my only) friends are doing the same thing. I shall dub them as Demon and Dragon on this thread.

A couple days ago, Demon was absent from class and me and Dragon assumed that she was sick. So I when I texted her asking her if she was okay, she never responded. However, Dragon emailed Demon's mom and said that she was somewhere and made it sound as if she didn't want to be bothered. Dragon, respectfully kept the location of Demon's whereabouts hidden. So now Demon is back at school and her mask is so painfully obvious. Dragon dropped a few subtle hints beforehand that leads me to believes that she was at the mental hospital. She even had to skip homeroom today to go to the guidance counselor to verify to her that it was okay for her to attend school.

I don't want to interfere, but I also know that Dragon is an empathetic dandere who can't handle supporting Demon in her inwardly broken state on his own. 'Cause I sure as hell know he couldn't just "not sleep" and ended up waking up at 5 for "no reason" with red puffy eyes. I know I'm probably overreacting by 10-25% and that the battle is ending - but not the war. I really can't help but feel that there is this sudden chasm between me and the two of them and it just adds those few more shoves that unwillingly draw me closer and closer to that same hospital. (because you know... paranoid mother getting a divorce with my dad along school and the slow climb full of self hate to stop being so mother fucking lazy so i can get a job and raise my gpa. but hey, what else is new?)

If you bothered to read these block of words then you get cookie XD I honestly did not intend for this to become such an enormous rant.

If I were you I'd step back and see what happens with this. I know it might feel to you like you need to get involved, but sometimes it's better to let this unfold, then approach your friends when you feel like its right. If this is an on going problem, I think that you do need to step in and figure out what's going on. Just give it some time before you get yourslef too wored up. I know that this must be hard, so I'm really sorry that you're dealing with this. Hope everything turns out well xx

>>2 Thanks, and I know that I shouldn't get involved in this predicament alone but for years we were all close without actually knowing each other.
We have a platonic love (well at least on my end, of this web :P) for each other that didn't need to be so bent on secrets. I'm quite sure if I can say the same if we're starting to hurt ourselves with our own secrets. We have always gave each other strong signals that we weren't happy and that there was this gaping depression deep down within our hearts that's creeping upwards. I remember this one time last year that Demon said if she were to destroy the world, the way she would do it is to let everything that's inside build up to the point her small body can't take it and she explodes. I mean glorious ending an' all, but she doesn't really deserve that kind of ending. I really don't know what's biting them inside, but then a again neither do they with me.
Really, the only person I- or we can ever really trust is another friend of mine called Angel. And, like the name implies, is the exact opposite of Demon. She goes through a ton of shit too but she can cope with much better. Angel even trusted us enough to tell her all of her secrets. I'm not kidding, all of them. (if you want to know where I belong in this wonderful spectrum of mythological creatures and un/holy beings, I'm the Witch or the Reaper; the little grayish area that fades white into black and vice versa)