So about two years ago I moved out to Auburndale. This small town in... Well its probably better not to disclose which state its in, even on a site full of trustworthy people.

But anyway..

When I moved here I left my friends behind. Granted there were only two of them that I saw regularly. These two friends it took me years to make, as I suffer from anthropophobia, which makes it virtually impossible for me to talk to and connect with people in person. I managed to make one friend here, after they pretty much forced me to talk to them.. leading to us finding out we share a lot in common, but he enlisted in the military and went to basic, and when he got out he barely even talked to me. At this point hes basically just stopped talking to me, and i feel like im back where I started. A lonely highschool drop out who cant connect with people.

Anyway.. this post was just sorta my way of venting what i've been feeling for a while.

Thanks to anybody who took the time to read this.

peace be with you, and may you find a soul to tend to yours.

I may suffer from a milder version of this. I was diagnosed with Social Anxiety Disorder, but I think it boils down to being afraid of people.

There are other people like you, basically. I met one by a miracle. It is not virtually impossible, but you will have to go to extreme lengths to set up every social situation in your favor as you are meeting someone and getting closer to them.

You will never eliminate the feeling when you are talking to people that something is wrong, or everyone hates you, or whatever it is you in particular feel. You can only ignore it to a point where it doesn't change what you do.

It's the hardest thing I've ever done and I'm still not done getting better at it. It's my single biggest challenge. And it is challenging, just because it's natural to other people doesn't mean it's easy.

For me, I went to clubs with similar interests, like Smash Bros club, etc. Conversation then comes easier. At the end of the day, it's worth it to find friends. I only have 2 or 3 good friends, and I'm not planning on finding a lot more, but it is worth it for me.

Good luck.