1 Name: J : 2015-10-08 12:43 ID:I/0Vi0uN (Image: 1024x768 jpg, 132 kb) [Del]
Along with this baggage: http://dollars-bbs.org/personal/res/1443632867.html
I'm currently dealing with anxiety and depressive surges now, more intense than before.
I fucking hate myself. Because of an incident, some of my teachers thinks badly of me. I don't blame them, because I can see how horrible I looked in their perspective. And I got this giant pressure on top of me now, because if I don't get high grades I'm kinda fucked when it comes to getting my own apartment and a fresh start in school.
It's even worse when I look home. Brother won't clean himself after practice, so he stinks, of course.
I've gotten on the wrong side with his friend and I feel a heavy anxiety from it, and a bit of paranoia.
If I don't do well in school, my parents will hit me and limit me down to hell.
They even denied me treatment, so I'm kinda fucked on that front, too.
Also, I kinda feel a bit worthless when I'm around my crush.
2 Name: J : 2015-10-08 12:45 ID:I/0Vi0uN [Del]
So... How should I kill myself? I got some heavy painkillers that'll put me down for sure, as well as some concentrated medicine alcohol.
3 Name: SylarGray : 2015-10-08 13:38 ID:iPdWSJ5u [Del]
Come on J, I understand how you feel, I hate myself too but you must not think about ending your life. Things will become better in the future. Just try to enjoy the little pretty things in your life :) Good luck ^^
4 Name: J : 2015-10-08 13:50 ID:I/0Vi0uN (Image: 649x529 jpg, 50 kb) [Del]
It's because of the anxiety and depression I can't enjoy a single thing.
5 Name: God hunter : 2015-10-08 16:35 ID:A0je/Rez [Del]
Steel your fing medical card an your social then go somewhere like a friends house a hotel a tent fing take soap tp find a creek by your school or do it at school sh%t There's so much you can do for yourself need money go find cans off the side the road or over a hill bank so can have your daily breed
6 Name: OminousBliss !/kYcF1wQTo : 2015-10-09 01:47 ID:92eG+y3Y [Del]
oh, that sounds horrible. How about trying to the problem cleared up with your brother's friend? im not sure how bad it is but i believe you should try to start there. Also PLEASE don't end your life! is there really nothing for you to lose? there is always something to lose. You will lose yourself. after all these years of living, would you really just end it there? i hope you dont do it and you will find that life can get better but you must do something for it to happen. So start there yeah? clearing up misunderstandings. We,the dollars, support you. That's what are here for i believe. Dont forget you are not alone!
