I hate having crushes...

I get infatuated with people and want to become their friend, even if they don't accept my feelings. I would still like to be friends because we still had fun together being friends. But they all leave and barely/never speak again.

The thing is I know my emotions and feelings and my whole process of how this goes. I get a crush with someone, try to be friends, they don't accept my feelings, I cry and move on. But when I want to still be friends they walk away from me.

I have a new friend, whom I didn't even know I would have a crush on. I don't know if I want to start a relationship with him though. He seem to want to since we both flirt with each other but I know how it's going to end.

We're in high school, it would be my first relationship, I KNOW HOW IT WILL END! It's high school! Since when did a high school couple last, and with a first relationship no less! I just feel stupid!

The thing is I know what to think about in a relationship somewhat. Like about open communication, having each other's space, accepting the things that annoy each other, know that we won't be fully satisfied in our relationship, we will still have secrets, we won't fully understand each other and we both have to be loving to each other not just being loved by only one...

I don't know, because I know it will end...

Very little people in this world will have a heart strong enough to still be friends if affection comes in to the picture. Even if it is possible, it will usually take years before the awkwardness between the two to disappear. So what you are experiencing is perfectly normal.

About you and your new friend, maybe I am not in the right position to give advice, but what I feel is that relationship is a responsibility. A responsibility of working towards the comment "end" of the relationship. If you imagine your "end" as break-up, then I will say there is no point in getting in relationship in the first place.
I personally know someone who is married to her first love in high school. Nothing is impossible.
Lastly, in my opinion, no love last forever. What keeps people together for life is the responsibility they picked up in a relationship.
Just saying my opinion, feel free to disagree or flame.
Hope all things will turn out well for you.

Going to 100 % agree with number 2 well also i Wouldn't get in a relationship with anyone from the same school if you break up its going to be weird the rest of your school life you think you won't see each other second i worked at home for the last year of high school because 92 girls got pregnant an not a single guy was there to help any of them get to class or anything there was only 300 students things got weird an i dipped because there was 92 single soon to be mothers

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I'm a high schooler like you, I'm a senior now but I dated a girl in my sophomore year it was both of our first real relationship it lasted a while but it eventually ended horribly. Though to be honest I regret nothing. Think about it this way, however long you wait you'll still have have a first relationship. Why not do it in high school and get some practice before the real world.

P.S. I'm in another relationship this one has lasted just over 6 months, you never know until try.

First, you don't know what's going to happen. Don't make throw assumptions around like that, you won't be satisfied living that way. And don't worry so much, you're still young and developing. Even if this relationship wouldn't work out it won't be the end of everything! Just more experience to be had, enjoy this life you have.

Why does she need a bad experience to have a good one #5 i disagree you dont need that much xp for a relationship because its lern as you go with each new one you begin