Right now I am at the edge of my breaking point and I just can't hold it anymore. I'm so tired of being used, abused and treated like a puppet. I've been going through depression for 10 long years and I can't avoid thinking of ending it all and the worst part is that it feels like no one even cares. I couldn't even bear to think how I can still be so kind when the world is so harsh to me. I can't take it anymore.

Hi, I might say I know how you feel but I won't because nobody knows a person is feeling other than himself but I want to tell you a story that a friend told me before he talked about a friend of his that he meet when he moved to a small town he said they were best friends they were so happy and the other boy was suffering and ones his friend told him that he's going out of town for couple of days his friend told him please don't go stay and he told him it's okay i'll come back it's only for a couple of days and the last words he heard his friend says that nobody cares, so he left and came back again after a couple of days to know that his friend passed away and when he went to the funeral he saw the whole town there he even saw his friend's internet friends everybody was crying and can't believe they lost him he saw that actually everybody cared.
so what I want to say please don't take a decision you will regret later try and find something new in the world believe me there's a lot to look forward to in the world and so what if you're kind kindness is not something bad kindness is a gift the fools in the world has lost and I really think you should be proud of it.
just try and open a new chapter begin a new life, and I really hope you feel better.

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Hello. :)
As someone who previously struggled with depression, I really want to try and help.
As >>2 mentioned, kindness is a virtue. Kindness is something very good. The world may seem like it is crashing down on you, but don't let that take away your kindness. Because being kind to others can help you feel better. :)
Stay strong, and hold on to hope. I want you to know that even though I don't know you, I want to help you, and I care about what you have to say. Look forward, and try to see the good in life. Try to see the beauty in nature, and in the simple things that happen around you. Find your simple pleasures. There are many things beautiful in this world, you just have to find them. And once you can look forward and realize that life won't be dark forever, look back onto your past. Reflect on the past, and learn from it. I believe that I have always been a good person, but after going through depression I became a better person. I learned many valuable lessons. Don't give up. Hold on to hope. Kindness to others is important.
I really hope that you will be okay. I also believe that one day, you will be okay. And I really, truly hope that this can help. :)

Im not got going to say like a doc but as another crazy hav you tried getting a hobby that gets you alway from stress cough family / friends /gf i have thoughts about destroying the world sometimes because i feel like you but ween i do i get up an leave an do my thing find your thing bro it helps

Life is precious and I learnt this from friends that didn't use me, bully me, abuse me and they liked me for the person i was. I also suffered from depression. You are probably really pretty or talented or kind or smart or considerate, you just don't know it. There is at least one person that cares if you suicided, i would care and HFA would care as well. I wish you all the luck and happiness to you and i hope u read this and find a reason to live because everyone is special in their own way and get through the struggles, no matter how big or small. enjoy the small things, savour every moment you experience

Oh please hun just please don't kill yourself I really don't believe that is the answer. I don't know you personally so I can't so saying I understand how you feel would be unfair, and I hope I'm not out of line for saying this but if you truly wanted to give up would you really post this technically asking people to deter you from that goal? Also if it helps I care and I'm pretty sure a lot of others that are actually in your life care to it's just that depression can keep you from seeing that. Hope this helped :)

Don't do it sweatheart.
It is a bad day, week, month not a bad life.
Change enviroment, start over and live and do what you wanna do, be happy, lots of people are afraid of doing so, but if you arent feeling good what do you have to lose?
Shot and see, and if you happen to end up in Sweden and need help, contact me.
I know how you feel, trust me, its ups and downs and carying and not, but dont give up, cause there are people who faiting to keep there lifes, its precious, so do the best of it.

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First, the reason why you're so kind is because you don't want people to go through what you're going through, and i must say that i idolate you for carrying your pain alone all this time.
Second, you don't deserve anything that's happening to you, i've had a hard time aswell but someone i didn't even know told me that if today was the worst day of my life, tomorrow would certainly be better, and i still don't know why that sentense helped me but it somehow did, so whatever's going on with you try and hold on to the little things because those are the most important ones!