Let's see where do I begin?

Since I was in elementary school I had alot of friends even though I'm probably the most shy and anti-social girl in the class. My friends were a pair of twins, a sassy but somewhat kind best friend, a small but terrible friend,an anime lover and one of the guys.
When my sassy but somewhat kind best friend died due to a heart disease, it was a shocker for all of us and then my other friends and I apparently grew apart for the last four years.
When i was in seventh grade, I transferred schools and had a few so-called friends. Although I felt as if I was being used, I still hung out with them. But since that school practically has smart students all-over my friends would just talk about stuff that I don't even know. I stopped hanging out with them in the process. And since my parents were too strict with me I haven't had the chance to socialize with people so easily which prevents me from making new ones.
In my eight grade up until now I got enrolled in a christian school and got used to the loneliness. This school used to be the school of my big brother and since me bro was a big bully back then they start to think that I was the same. They were shocked when they found out that I was completely the opposite. They were still pretty scared of me though. Anyway, last summer I had summer school since I didn't finish my modules. I met two girls, one was a sassy leader and the other was a crazy fangirl. We started hanging out during breaks and sometimes after school for some snacks and even made a name for our group "Blitches". But when the school year started our sassy leader got new friends from her class and she started ignoring us. We were what's left of our group until just last week when my so-called friend actually asked me to get new friends because she already has some too. She also sent me text saying "Perhaps you should be alone". And now I'm of what's left of my own world. I feel so angry yet so sory for myself for not being able to make friends like in my imaginations but I somehow also enjoy being alone. I feel so stupid!!!

friends aren't necessary at least i think so if u dont support this then thats that . just find a talkmate and talk to him/her friends are things that happen of course u need to play a role in making them but don't think u are the only one who thinks like this . This matter has effect on a lot of people be patient and u shall find someone .

You want to have friends but you also want to be alone, right. So there's this thing I call, 'freelance relationships' meaning you are not bound but instead become a wind that moves through every space. Not everyone can pull it off though and I might be a lot older than you.

Learn about people and their behaviour at your age and when you get to your last 2 years of school, you will enjoy having time to yourself when you want and hanging out with certain groups or any sort of people whenever you want as well! no harsh conformity.

I know the feeling. Especially, the one described on the picture.
There was a time I didn't have any true friends.
It's kinda hard to explain it in English, because I don't know the appropriate use of some words.
I started to write something, but I realized I was just writing some boring stuff about my life.
"Perhaps you should be alone" - well, that was really cruel. I can't imagine any of my friends saying something like this to me. Maybe you'll meet a true friend in the future.
If you want, I can tell you more about similar feelings I had. But now it's getting late here, so I'll go to sleep.

You can tell me your experience since I already shared mine.

>>5
OK.
As I said, there was a time I didn't have any true friends. I was very lonely without realizing it. I just didn't know what it's like to be really close friends with people. Now I remember there were some people who I called my friends. But I think we weren't really close.
Then I moved to another town. At first the situation there was the same. "People I call friends who are not really close to me". And there was a guy I hated a little. And we suddenly started to become close friends. He became my best friend.
The sad thing is while he was my best friend, I felt like I wasn't his best friend.
I hate it when something that was planned to be a story of my feelings becomes a story of my life.
What I wanted to say is this:
I had this feeling of being alone. I liked it and I didn't want to be alone forever. Now I sometimes miss this feeling. For me it disappeared when I started to hang out with that guy. Then it returned when I moved to another city and entered university, because I make friends very slowly. Then it disappeared again when I made friends here, at the university. I spent almost a year without having any friends here and then after a conversation that lasted an hour I instantly was friends with a guy who is now my roommate.
So, for me is wasn't something controlled. And I don't think there are a lot of people for whom making friends is a controlled thing.
So, I don't know what to say. Maybe you see you future best friend every day, but you just haven't talked to that person and you don't realize you have a lot in common.
Maybe we have a lot in common and can be best friends. You never know.

hi ill be there if u need me

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