after so many years of loneliness. i have been bullied. raped by my own father, and never got to speak to my foreign mother cuz my father did not allow it. i spent so many hours alone and felt perfectly okay with it. because i knew that that was the only time i was safe. but when i was 9. i moved to a foster family. i got a family that i knew loved me. i got friends. and i even got a boyfriend. i wonder if this ever flowing wave of love will heal my tarnished soul? i don´t know yet. i´ve had a terrible past. i still have flashbacks. but... i consider myself lucky to be where i am now. at first, i did not understand love at all. i did not understand how somebody could love a bastard like me. but now i understand. i accept my flaws. i know what happened in the past. but i refuse to make my past into my future. i will fight to get over it. and i am getting over it now. everyone. if you ever felt down, feeling that life does not matter anymore. don´t let that get into you! there is a person that cares for you! because everything we say and do. can affect a person. have you ever met a certain person who did a good deed to you? and just made your day? that is a good example. you are one of them! without you knowing it, you might have made a person smile just at this moment. i know i will. because if you read this. and leave a comment, that means that you cared enough to listen to what i had to say.
and that made me really happy :)
thank you <3

IM SO SORRY FOR EVERTHING U HAVE BEEN THROUGH UR FATHER IS A DEVIL HE ISNT UR FATHER HE IS A FILTHY SCUM. IM SO SORRY FOR WAT U HAD TO GO THROUGH BE HAPPY AND I HOPE U ARE GUIDED AND I THINK U ARE AMAZING THANK U AND I BE HAPPY. PLZ BE HAPPY AND NEVER FORGOT GOD LOVES U AND I HOPE HE GUIDES AND I HOPE U REMAIN HAPPY FOR THE REST OF UR LIFE AND IF U STRUGGLE ANYMORE AND NEED HELP PLZ MESG HER I WILL HELP U ALL I CAN U ARE AMAZING HUMAN.







BE HAPPY

you just made my day <3 :) i wish you the best as well :)

I know what you have been threw.

Thank you Anniz for your post, it absolutely made my day and I smiled, of course XD You're a beautiful person and I wish you the best of luck on your journey through life :D

You're the best.

This was really inspirational, thank you for writing this. :)
I wish you luck and happiness throughout you life. :)

>>1 Stuff, and I only read the first and last line.

>>4 i´m so happy you understand :)
>>5 thank you Heona i´m so happy i made you happy :)
>>6 well thank you, you are so kind :)
<<7 awe >8 you read it and i´m so grateful for it :)
everyone. i am so happy for all of your nice words <3 i don´see myself as a bastard anymore. and its all thanks to you ^_^i owe you one ;)

YOU ARE AWESOMEEEE

>>10 thanks m8 you are awesome too :P

This is a very nice reminder.
I think people tend to forget that they're actually cared for, at least I do. ^^'

Thank you for sharing this and I wish you all the best.

Wow you're strong! i must say for a long time i denied myself because i hated myself, so i tried to become someone i wasn't and that didn't up really well, it felt like finally the world made sense when i gave up trying to hate myself and started trying to love myself. My problem was that i was weak and couldn't accept that weakness, but now it makes me stronger! Have a nice day and you really did put a smile on my face ;)

>>12 thank you, i am so happy to hear that ^_^
>>13oh really? awe that makes me so happy! ^_^

From the bottom of heart, I am happy that you found love from people that genuinely care for you. While your past may be one filled with ugliness, it doesn't define who you are. I believe you're a beautiful human being with a kind soul. Please continue forward with your journey alongside those you hold dear. I hope you the best and may good fortunes be with you.

>>15 thank you so much ^_^ that made me so happy <3

*hugs*

>> 17 *Hugs* ^_^

Thank you very much. And your right, people can leave a good mark on others. Just by you mentioning that, the face of a girl that made my day with a simple smile and kindness flashed and came back to me. Its been years since that happened. And its still retained within my memory. So yes you can leave a mark. A simple smile and kindness is all you need to do it

Good story you started in the slum and now your at a new height always stay strong i wish i was that strong but i always keep falling but who cares about that im glad i got to hear your story. ^^

>> indeed ^_^ i am happy you understand this, it makes life so much better!

>>21 thank you ^_^but how can you say that you are not strong? if you have fallen and still stand on your feet. does that not make you strong? there are so many people that fokus on the ugly scars they got on their fall and end up dead. but look at you. you have fallen, you are still alive. fighting. you are strong. you just haven't seen it yet. i believe that is the problem. you are perfect as you are ^_^i wish the best of luck for you

thanks i needed this

you are very welcome ^_^

It's stories like this one that really brings some perspective into life. And here I thought I was having it rough. I know it isn't really a competition on situational gravity, but things can be differently bad for different people. I haven't been through what you've been through, so I don't really have any idea how bad that exactly is, but I can at least guess; yeah, it's pretty bad. I like how you pulled yourself out of wherever you've been, it makes me feel a little better. Thanks, Anniz, and great job!

>>26 no. thank you for caring ^_^if only you knew how happy i am for you reading this ^_^

As I told you Anniz there is alot of people that care ^_^
We will always be here for you ^_^ Your post actually made me smile and almost cry :D <3
As I alredy told you, you are a great person and with each post I see from you I can see that, and you are even a better person that what I thought in the beginning ^_^

Good luck with everything, be happy, don't ever forget that there is alot of people that love you, including on these forums <3

thank you ^_^

Despite what you've been through. You are a very strong person.
And thank you for sharing your story. Godbless .

thank you, and no problem ^_^i just felt like i could talk about this here ^_^

I was an uncaring person once upon a time. But everything change when i started to change when i started to volunteer to teach in an orphanage. Everybody has their dark history.
I know some of my friends who were not so lucky.

Just remember Anniz there is always someone who care about you. You are a awesome person and should strive to become more awesome. You know what would be great? If you help someone who were just like you. Because you can feel more connected to them than somebody else.

Remember to help people too :3

i will thank you ^_^

You have an amazing and encouraging testimony! I am happy to see you are now trying to live to the fullest and keep moving!

i will thank you! ^_^

Hope you get so happy for so long that those days became an old nightmare. I know that you wont forget just like that, but i honestly hope so. I care. Be happy angel :,)

angel? well thank you ^_^

>>36 is right Anniz, you are an angel <3

well, thanks for sharing your experience. Hope that like you, we can live on and defeat our nightmares...
And I hope I can find the place where I can belong...

you will find it ^_^ we will be here for you with every step you take ;)

I think it's amazing that despite what you've been through, you're still going strong. A lot of people don't have that courage and endurance to keep going.
For awhile the only thing that kept me going is my beliefs. Now I'm slowly starting to get used to the idea that I may not end up where I wanted to go, but I will end up where I'm meant to be

thats the spirit! ^_^

We all deserve a hot choco right now. Thanks for sharing and making us also smile

woo hoo you go girl! ^.^

thanks! ^_^