>>1I'm pretty bad with words, but I am going to try, because I really want to help you. I hate seeing people feeling sad, and I know how painful depression can be. The people who have responded in your thread before me have provided great advice. Listen to what they said. It will help.
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>>2 wrote, the Dollars is a family. There is something here for everyone, and anyone can find help here. I know that when I really needed some help, I came here. The people on this website are always caring and always willing to help. And we want to help you.
I'm going to try my best to explain how I helped myself when I had depression. I won't lie, it was hard, but you have to find a source of hope. And hope can be found in a lot of things-an inspirational song, or maybe just by observing nature. I found that observing nature around you helps relieve sadness.
You mentioned that you don't see meaning in life as all we do is for nothing. Some my disagree, but I believe that everything happens for a reason. Everything that occurs in the world, and every action someone does happens for a reason. And that reason may not be clear at first. But if you search for that reason, after some time passes you will find a reason for life. You will find a meaning to life, and your reason for being on this earth. There is a meaning, and a reason. Those reasons may be different for everyone, but in time, you will see the meaning of life.
I really hope you will be okay. Please know that there are people in the Dollars who care about you, and that those people are willing to listen to anything you need to talk about.
Please don't commit suicide. It really won't help you. Just stay strong, have hope, and remember that the world really isn't as bad as it may seem.