Without going into super personal detail, I'd like to explain everything. I should mention I'm 14.

The past year has been rough for me. And yet everyone another thing goes wrong, and I feel as if my heart would explode, I just stop. Idk what else to say.

Just tonight I've had yet another thing go wrong, and I was feeling physical pain in my chest from my heart throbbing, and I just sorta stop. I got out to the car so that hopefully no one would see me cry, yet I only cried for around 3 minutes, then it got to the point of just trying to make myself cry more.

Crying is emotionally and mentally healthy to do under stress, and in the moments of distress, it's definitely all I want to do. But those moments only last a few minutes. And then I just don't feel anything. Tonight was the worst of the past year of shit, and I just want to feel sad about it.

I was hoping someone could identify an emotionally stripping mental disorder or something?

Idk

I just don't want to feel empty right now, not now, of all times.

If you rely on the internet for solving problems while you're still mentally developing, you're gonna be fucked for life

Thank you for your great input jackass. Not like I can see a therapist at 3:37 am.

Psychopathy?

Honestly, I used to be like you. I had that same pain you experienced. Sometimes, when something really bad happens and you get in a bit of trouble, your heart starts to beat really fast and sometimes you can't handle that (that's why too much stress can kill you), and being 14 (the middle of the mental development age, you are very likely to be experiencing temporary anxiety. Anxiety can affect this greatly because if something really bad happens and your heart starts beating fast, the anxiety will just boost your stress levels until it can't sky rocket anymore. What I'm trying to say is there isn't anything wrong with you. It's just something everyone goes through. Don't worry, and don't listen to NZPIEFACE. Asking advice from people when you are unsure is a good thing. That way you can relate with others who have experienced similar things and find out whether there is or isn't anything wrong with you. I hope I helped you out... Don't worry though, that will go away when you aren't anxious and you can better solve problems without panicking. Every problem you have is temporary (just remember that and you will always succeed).

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Find something that you like to do and brings a smile to your face.

Well, when I thought it couldn't get worse; it did. My life within 2 months will never be the same. This is he worst day of my life. I had to say that because this was about an involuntary emotional bottling, and the bottle has been opened. I've been crying since around 5 pm. with only about 5-15 minute breaks. My voice is almost gone and I have a pain in my chest, temples, and shoulders. Today has been the first day in my life where I have contemplated suicide. My eyes are unimaginably dry. I vomited 2 times and passed out around 1 am it's 5:30 am now As a warning to people who may share this, seek a psychologist. Today has been a physical and emotional hell.

Oh when I hyperventilated and passed out around 1 I was only out for maybe, 3 mins? Idk you can't necessarily tell time when passed out lol.

Have a bar of chocolate. Smile. Do something you love. Smile again.

PS, "The world isn't as bad as it seems." It always gets better

it sounds like you're disassociating. Disassociation doesn't have to last from just time to time. For some people it's their main state. I don't have much advice for it though, I struggle with it myself. Honestly napping helps me. Eating my favorite foods. Exercising some. Anything I find enjoyable to keep mind away from dark corners so I can start to experience positive emotions again.

>>10 Ever live in a war zone? Nah, thought not

I get like this too! I suggest trying to take care of yourself, take long baths (or showers), play a game or read a book, drink and eat your favourite things. Try to be around people that genuinely make you feel happy. But if things ever feel like they get worse, confide in someone you trust, it really will lift a weight off your shoulders

>>12 personal and physical needs adjust to the circumstances. Also, even if the world is at war, people still struggle to survive, and that in itself is bautiful. I won't go further out on this but I seriously dislike your cold on logical view on everything, acting high and mighty because you're doing fine and others are. This is not a fitting place for cynism. Damn it, I've been gone for almost two months and still remember you >.<

Back to topic, get professional help. Your physical state is nothing to joke about, and before you search for a psychologist, go to the hospital. Your body had a lot to endure and you need to rest for now, the staff will notice your suffering and they'll be able to help, at least recommend you someone.
That's as much as I can do without much personal information, just know that the fact that you're crying means that you are still attached to this world, hence you suffer.

>>14 I was just proving that guy wrong

>>15 but it added nothing constructive to the thread.

Also, I just realised my post is a grammatical wreck. I hope I conveyed my opinnion anyways. I should stop writing these at 3 a.m.

Maybe I'm crazy, but I believe this isn't bad at all, sure, it's difficult, but once it passes (and it will if you don't kill yourself -_-) You'll be able to look at things from a.... 'deeper?' perspective, I have a similar 'problem' and I value it instead of hating it, it makes me who I am.
I wish I could cry for an entire day... Longest I cryed was for like an hour. Sure it's not good physically, but it eases the pain by an infinite margin.