This here is a thread to confess anything you regret. I'll start by confessing what I've done.

Well, it started at around the start of term 2, my first year in high school. I had 4 friends I hung out with. My best friend decided to say she liked me - more than just a friend. I was straight, so I didn't know what to say to this. I just said, "I understand" and accepted, acting happily to not make it awkward. I told her I felt the same - I lied. I lied like I had been doing all my life - I can never seem to tell the truth. I went along with it, nothing really happening for months. Without realizing it, I'd fallen for her - but it was already too late. She began talking about some girl in her art class, saying things about how much she wants to be with her. That pretty much ended that, but not how I felt. She said liking me was just a phase she went through. I lied again and said it was okay. My heart hurts whenever I lie to her. I went out with a guy - that lasted about 2 weeks. I went out with another one of my friends who liked me. I USED her. I lied to them all, saying I will love them endlessly. Lies. All lies. I tried to cry, every night, but nothing would come out. I'm all empty inside. I'm cruel, mean, self-satisfied. Nowadays, I still love her beyond thoughts. She told me recently she cries herself to sleep. I know it's because of me. She told me the one she loves will never love her back. I lied and told her I don't know how that feels. Quite sad. I can't cry anymore. I'm all dried up. For her, I would defeat anyone in her path. I would risk myself for her. But most of all, I'm sorry. I'm sorry I exist. I'm sorry I was born. I'm sorry you had to deal with me. I'm sorry I lied. I'm sorry I love you. I'm sorry.

You said your best friend liked you, and you lied to her. If she is your best friend then why did you lie to her.
Telling the truth to someone will maybe hurt that person but lying with hurt them even more.

When you want to do something, think about it.

I guess I'll go next..
Two years ago, I was in this class and there was this new girl. She didn't talk much in class. I wanted to talk to her. make her smile. I wanted to be someone to her.
I guess I loved her but I can't be sure.
I never worked up the courage to talk to her. The best I could do was smile whenever she looked my way. The following year, I didn't see her in class at all. I thought "Damn, I messed up." My apparent failure ate at me for a while. I don't know if it either I stopped caring or I just became numb to it.

I'll go, last year was my freshmen year in highschool. It started out pretty well, I had a lot of friends and started dating a really cute girl I met on a field trip. It lasted about a month and ended rather harshly. I had been really great friends with her best friend, who is probably the most beautiful person I have ever met. I developed very strong undefined feelings for her that she is too dense to be aware of (so cute lol), but She is the only one of my ex's friends that talks to me still, and this to is starting to become a rarity now. I feel like I'm done. its fucking sucks

>>2 Yeah, well, I am a horrible person. I can't stop - I don't know anymore. I am apparently moving schools next year - I have my own plans to fall even further down. Literally.

School is too easy. I had to make it at least a little fun, so I made cheating my hobby. Haven't been caught once on tests in 2 years.
I got an offer to skip all the years of school I have left and move on with education yesterday. Well, it took me shorter than I thought.

I'm going to say something that will probably make any normal person think about me as Satan's child so please don't hate me for it.

Okay, here it goes... I was close friends with this guy and sometimes he'd invite me over to hang out with his girlfriend. I didn't want to, but since he insisted I went. I started getting closer to his girlfriend until he started becoming the third wheel. No, I never EVER tried to flirt with her, but apparently the broke up because she liked me (according to him) and according to her, she said "He just wasn't who I thought he was" and I accepted that. She and I started getting really close as friends, but when I realised that she had started liking me, I completely avoided her. She confronted me at my school one day and asked me why I never spoke to her again. It broke my heart to let go of a friend, but my bond with her ex was stronger than my friendship with her so yeah.. Afterwards I saw her hanging around with the bad crowd and people started telling me it was just to get her attention, I never spoke to her though.. Next thing I know, she starts smoking and drinking and once went to this party with a bunch of delinquents and rumors started spreading about her having sex with the guys there but I didn't care at all cause I am a massive asshole. Huge one. Seriously I don't know why I never talked to her, she told me about how her father was abusive and the only one she could talk freely with was me. Every night I would have called her cause she always had a problem with her alcoholic mother who left her to take care of her little brother alone... I know she liked me cause she ended up telling me, but I could have at least kept supporting her as a friend. I want to apologize to her but I don't know where she is now and I'm too much of a coward to call her or meet her.

I've been a horrible person on this site, I'm not apologizing, it's the internet.

I'm in love with someone who hates me

When i was a kid i saw many opportunities to help people but not all the time did i try..sometimes i just kept to my self instead... Sigh..im horrible.

My turn.
Last year My friend told me that he liked me, and I told him that I liked him back even though I didn't like him THAT much. We started going out and he was the best person ever! I fell more and more in love with him. He would compliment me and he would kiss me on the cheek, but I could never bring myself to return it to him. I loved him but I just didn't know how to be a girlfriend. Over time we grew apart. We stopped talking, though we were still technically girlfriend and boyfriend. And I still loved him. It makes sense why he stopped liking me though. He broke up with me 7 months after we started going out. Even though it shouldn't have hurt, It did. It hurt a lot. I now knew how it felt to be heartbroken. On the last day of school, I found out that he had gotten a new girlfriend, who was one of my friends. Which also hurt. Since we broke up, several months ago, I haven't gone a day without thinking about him, and about how I should've told him all of my inner thoughts, how messed up I am, and how I should've showed my love more. Now we are in school again together, luckily we don't have classes together, otherwise I probably wouldn't be able to deal with the pain i still have.

I've decided on something. I will live for her. I will love her. I will try for her. I will do anything for her. I want to be someone special to her, not just a friend who stands by. I will protect her and do anything for her until the very end. I am hoping to get a job soon and earn money, despite being 12 they have accepted me into a job at Candy Time (it's NOT illegal - Child actors, HELLO). I will do it all for her. I will endure the horrible things that may be given to me in this world and take all of her negative feelings and replace it with joy. I will love her. I will stay by her side, unmoving. Thank you.

with everything i typed here, even if i never publiced it, i secretly hoped people would be sorry for me.

>>14 i feel the same glad its not just me

>>5 I'm so sorry. I knew you felt this way about her. I didn't think you felt this worthless. Live for whatever you can. Your friends love you so much. Please be OK.
-C

I don't regret anything, Why? because everything that happened has its own reason. The choices we made,the path we take,the mistake we committed because that make us HUMANS.

My turn then huh,well once I had a friend that was my best friend,I loved spending time with her because whenever I saw her smile,I felt like I wanted to always be by her side, and before I knew it,I had already fallen in love with her,but it was painful and she already had a fiance so I haven't confessed yo her,but after 1 year passed I still loved her and I am planing on finding her again and confessing to her.

>>17 What s/he said. I do feel sad about some things that happened in life, but I don't regret them. (also that Izaya picture really makes me want to hug him :'c)

My only regret in life is my sexuality choice. Over a long period of time, I was depressed, suicidal, and not very confident. Years went by me, I went from believing my gender to questioning it. Went to straight, to being possibly the most homosexual person I'll ever meet. So many of the opposite gender have confessed their "love to me," but I've been heartless enough to simply say "I don't give a fuck, leave me alone." and walk away, nothing more said. I don't feel bad, I was being honest, but now I have to live my whole life in the closet. All of my irl friends are the straightest possible arrows ever, and heavily religious. They'll never accept me once they find out I'm a homosexual...

>>20 Of they still love you. Regardless of their beliefs or their religion, then good for them. There is nothing wrong with you, so you shouldn't regret something that's in your blood. You cam choose who you want to hang out with and no one should judge you for who you are. Simply flip them off and tell them to go fuck themselves if anyone saus otherwose :)

>>21 thanks, that's pretty encouraging.

Yuno, (don't know if I spelt that correctly) I can't say I've been through the same thing you have... But I know what it's like to have feelings for someone that you know will never returned, not being able to say "I love you" to that person because you don't risk it because you know they can't say it back. So...GABI, I'm going to say it here and not in person because I'm such a coward. I DO really like you but I can't give you the kind of love that you want and I'm sorry. I was confused and stressed and I let that stress cause me to hurt you and I'm truly, deeply sorry. You're one of the best friend I've ever had and you know that I'll always be there for you no matter what. So there's what I regret. Anyone else gonna go or...? Anyone? Yes? No? Okay then.

well.. i have many things i regret. times like i should have acted differently,
like that time when i let myself trust my father that animal torture is okay. and kept on doing that until i realized that it was a sick thing to do. thinks i said that i wish never would have left my mouth.
like that time when i yelled at my mother out of anger and made her cry.
and i started hating myself.
what i did before. was wrong. i know that. i feel ashamed of what i did. especially the animal torturing part.. i don´t care if it was my father who made me do that. i still did it. and i regret it so fucking much. but that is another reason for me to change. i will never hurt an animal again. i will do the best of the time i have. i will think before i speak. however. i have always stood up for what i believe is right. you know what? i won't let my past drag me down. i accept my flaws. it is a part of me. and just as i have flaws. i also have good sides as well. i refuse to let my past turn into my future. i will fight. and i will win. and you will win as well. forgive yourself. because everyone deserves a second chance. if you don´t believe me. then look it at this way. you regret it. therefore you care, if you care, then show it. it is NEVER to late. i believe in you all. ^_^ tell me how it went later okay?

>>23 I know. That's okay. I might sound like a masochist here (of which I most likely am) but I kind of get the feeling that you don't specifically want to be my friend. I always get vibes like "GO TO HELL" or "PISS OFF". I'm sorry. I know I'm weird and all, but there's only 6 weeks to go. You won't have to deal with me after that, 'kay?

You live and you learn.
Back when i was in Middle School... I touched someones butt once and she never knew who it was. I regret that and it's been like 6 years since and I can't do anything about that now. I also showed my sister and neighbor's kid who was 3 years younger than me the nasty stuff on the net and her family moved a few months later. I wonder if that traumatized her. I wish i had never seen that stuff myself in the first place either 'cause it sure got me messed up for a while. This all happened during my middle school years and man do i regret that and other things in my life. Including my life...

My regrets. There are so many things that I and many others regret, but can even account for clearly. Little things like what came out of your mouth when you were pissed at your parents,or minor things that could have had a better outcome. Since we are humans, we regret the pennies and the dollars. Here, I can confess but not regret.
People are my toys, but I can only play with them when they are new, then they become worn and dull, boring. Sometimes I can throw these toys away, other times im stuck with them. They become worn when my human emotions get the best of me.

Someone started to cut because I did it... My best friend did it because she thought I hated her...

Once when I was on my way to work,I bumped into a girl,and (P.S I know this sounds like a cliche anime clip,but it actually happened) anyway this girl,(I'll call her Shoujo for now,) Shoujo fell down on me and it was on the station near the stairs,I broke my arm,and she was horrified and she asked me if I could move my hand,and I said I couldn't, I had been watching that girl the whole time since I had a crush on her,but for some reason I rejected her,because I wanted her to care for me not just because of my arm,but because I'm me. Last time I saw her was 1 month ago. We go on the same bus,but we hardly ever talk to her. I still like her so I don't know what I should do because I might be rejected.

I regret the things I haven't done. But no one has the luxury to travel around the world. Ok, maybe some. I don't have alot of time to read all books. Nor I'm smart enough to learn 10 different language. I'll just confuse myself with those words. So I abandon those hopeless dreams and focus on one thing only. Afterall I don't have much time in my hands. If I want to travel I'll just go around my area. Instead of reading all books, I'll just read some in my free time. If I want to learn language I'll go around 2 or 3. I'm no superhuman. And I regret not being one. But I can't force everything at once. Afterall, no one is born perfect. Everything has to be done by trial and error in order to achieve your goal.

I regret missing my bus today...

I regret ruining every anime/manga that my boyfriend watches/reads

I regret a lot of things even though I say I don't.
I'm actually kind of a selfish person, when my friend is in trouble I don't help them because I decided a long time ago that I was going to be a loner yet I still ended up with friends. But when it's on me, I feel like my life's about to end and im so over dramatic about it. And even worse...
Through my 7-10 years of age, I used a lot of people. Especially 2 of my old friends, who both hate me now. And it doesn't stop there, I have no recollection of anything I did to them. That was why I wanted to stay a loner because I didn't want to be friends with someone and then throw them away. That's all I really have, the other stuff is just living life.

I fell for this girl but was too afraid to talk ask her out. I later found out that she was also afraid to ask me out. If I had the balls to ask we would have been together.

If you want to be with a guy or girl just tell them. What the worst that can happen? She denies you and you both move on.

I regret being ashamed of my bisexuality.

idk if anybody is going to read this. but my regret not telling my two old friends that I cut.

we used to be a friendgroup of four. I knew one of the girls longer than I did the other two so I told her first.(she always wanted me to open up more cause I'm quite and don't really talk much) I was distancing myself from her cause I was in a really sad headspace that time. we didn't talk anymore. of course I noticed that and I thought the best thing to do was to tell her. but she didn't understand. I was okay with that, cause who would understand? I didn't expect much but I just didn't want our friendships to end. I told her I need her help to get over all this. when she asked why I would do this to me I didn't tell her anything. well, it was because of her.

she said she couldn't keep up with this friendship and she also wanted me to tell the other two girls. but I wanted this to stay between her and me because she meant the world to me. I didn't realise I overwhelmed her with everything I told her. I mean it was so suddenly. later on she also told me she was planning on ending our friendship for some time. so everything was for nothing? it was all lies from the start? I didn't know what to do anymore. she said she doesn't want me to cut after we ended the friendship. but how? how am I supposed to stop when she was the reason I started and now she just left?

maybe if I had told the other two we could've talked it over and they'd have helped me. because of all this I can't ever talk about this again.

I have made two new friends. but one of them reminds me soo much of my old best friend. she also wants me to talk more about my problems, which I don't do anymore. but this way I'm also hurting her cause she thinks I don't trust her. but I can't. I can't tell her this. she's gonna get hurt too. and she'd be worrying all the time. but what should I do?

I wouldn't be in this situation rn if i had just told all 3 of my friends what was going on. I'd still be friends in my old friendgroup.

thanks for anyone who read everything. i feel kinda better now. have a nice day!^^

I regret a lot of things mostly never being able to stand up for myself, not coming out to old friends and instead just distancing myself from them, not trying to be remembered by them, not caring what happens to me, feeling like I'm not good enough, listening to people who don't care about me, and taking every last thing they say when I know I shouldn't be. That's some of the things I regret...

I regret rubbing off on my friends, and how badly I treat other people.

When I was young I tried to be like that than others and to make it what was expected of me. But I couldn't do it. So I decided not to be like them. I started watching animes, liking Asia and don't care about what they are think. I lost my only friend and was alone still highschool. Then I decided to be open and adaptable. I do what they did, I thought what they wanted and I realised that I'm not the same person anymore.

Then I lost them. And stayed alone with another personality. That is what I really regret.

So there's this Girl and she's older than me because like she's my senior. I knew her friend because He went to the same school that I did before I transfered. My other friend teasef me to the girl that she had a crush on me. But like i'm straight. And I have issues for myself. So like we started chatting for 7 months I think. Then later she sent me a long sweet message that shocked me to the core. I didn't knew how to respond so I just said i needed some time but we were cool we were still friends. Then when she stopped chatting, I regret what I've done. I never realized that she was special to me. I never realized that I loved her. And now it's too late

I regret not being able to control myself.
I regret going from lovin my larents deeply to hating them both, because they are really nice, good, and accepting, they have flaws like everyone, but they try their best and I know they deserve better than me, I don't hate them now but I also don't love them and it hurts because I want to give them more and I can't bring myself to, I'm really horrible to them and I want to stop myself bu keep failing.
I regret watching and reading inappropriate contents on the internet because I keep thinking about them now, I started doing that two years ago, but stopped in the middle of the last year, but I got too depressed during that time and developed bad, disgustig habits that I can't seem to get rid of even though I try (maybe I'm not trying hard enough). And the things is, it never felt good, not even once, it always made me feel bad, horrible, disgusted, angry, sad and depressed, not even once did I get a good feeling out of it, yet I keep doing it.
I regret letting everythibv affect my studies, I stopped caring about my studies since a long time ago, and now I'm a senior and I want to do good at school, but it's hard, really hard, I can't concentrate, I can't memorise anything and I don't know what to do. I never thought I was really smart but I never was stupid, maybe a little smart, and I believed if I tried I can get good grades, but maybe I'm stupid after all.
I regret convincing myself that I was depressed.

Dear post >>44, I hope you read this, and soon feel better too.

I like this thread and read through it. Now, before I try to give you my advice, I have to tell my story too, right?

Well, I can't really think of anything I regret. My life philosphy is, that even if I am not responsible for my problems, that I will take responsibility for them.

But I can tell you about something that has happened to me when I was younger, around 5 years ago.

I dated a girl I met online. She was pretty, caring and smart. She lived close by. We would talk all day long, and text if we didn't get to meet. Looking back, it was like an addiction, haha. However, we had quite a lot of fights in our relationship. We kept fighting and breaking up, to the point where she started saying that she got seriously depressive and wanted to take her life. It shocked me at first, but with everytime she threatened to take her life, I started caring less. This sounds very heartless of me, and it was. In the end, I broke up with her and blocked her online, avoiding her completely. I can't tell what could have happened otherwise.
I kinda wish to know what she is up to now. How she is doing.
- I know that she is alive, guys. Don't worry. -

Let me get back to what I started this post with. I want to give you some advice on how to better control your behaviour.

You probably have seen it on TV before: Carrying a rubber band around your wrist to flick yourself with it when you notice your negative behaviour.

I want to explain how this works to you. That way you can use the same method and create your own way of dealing with your problem.
To understand why flicking yourself with a rubber band helps, you need to slightly understand how habits work. You can think of a habit as a chain of actions you carry out when your brain notices a cue that you associate with the following actions.
An example for this would be scrolling through your twitter feed when you use the toilet. The cue is sitting on the toilet with your phone. Then, you automatically scroll through your twitter feed, because that's what you always do. But to establish a habit, this chain reactions needs a reward at the end. The reward of scrolling through your twitter page on the toilet would be satisfaction, or the sense of not wasting your time doing nothing on the toilet.
* A habit consists of three parts, the cue, which activates the habit-loop, the routine, which you perform in order to get your reward, and finally, the reward, which you desire. *

Now that you understand how habit works, you can appply this to how the rubber-band-flicking helps dealing with problems in some cases.
- Noticing misbehaviour -> flicking yourself with the rubber band -> reminding yourself of the right way to behave through the pain. -

If you are interested in learning more about habits, you can do so by reading the book "The Power of Habit - Why we do what we do and how to change" by Charles Duhigg. This book is very beginner-friendly and explains everything in a simple and understandable way using good and relatable examples.

Here is a link to the "philosophy" I mentioned earlier. I have it from a book called "The Art of Not Giving A Fuck" by
Mark Manson.
https://markmanson.net/responsibility-fault-fallacy

>>45 Thank you, I appreciate this. I will check them out.

I regret to be myself tbh

following whatever the people around you wants is the answer to everything, but then I decided to 'choose my own path' like fuck off 'me' tf u think u are.

>>47 Being myself again was the best thing I've done, in my own experience. Pretending just made me cringy, and I felt fake which led to me feeling bad. Now, I don't have that much of great personality and I ended up losing some 'friends', I felt sad and lonely at first, but it was okay after a while because, I never genuinly liked them -not that I disliked them- in the first place.
Still though, maybe your 'own path' or 'self' has some errors, which everyone has, and maybe like in my case, too many errors, you just need to fix them slowly if you believe they're bad, but not following whatever the people around you want, because, no offence intended, if you're doing all the time and just to make things easier for yourself I feel like it's kind of like you don't have any self at all, which is a very bad thing as I see it.

I haven't been on a thread like this in a while, it's hard to chose what to talk about. I guess I could talk about something recent that has to do with the topic of 'self'. I don't really know what to make of myself. I don't really know who I am, and it feels weird. It's like I've got so many different thoughts and feelings constantly colliding with one another, and it's hard to tell how I really feel.
I want to be a mediator and be a pacifist, but the moment I get annoyed or mad I want to tear my hands and feet up beating the shit out of something. I hate being an asshole to people, but then at the same time I want to just let loose and go apeshit and I want people to fear me. I want to be a person who has people on edge, someone that'll have you quaking in your skin if you cross me.
I'm terrified of how people view me, but at the same time I don't give a fuck. I shouldn't care about what people think of me, but the thought of people whispering behind my back makes me want to just fight everyone and call them out on their shit.
I want to be a nice person, but then I just. Don't. I don't want to be nice. I don't necessarily want to be a bitch, either, I just want to be feared so I don't have to deal with people's shit all the time.
I want to tear myself apart all the fucking time until there's nothing left of me, but I want to also feel confident like the baddest bitch in the room.
I get so obsessive about certain things and certain people it scares me sometimes. I have so many thoughts that I want to act on so badly, like I just want to beat the shit out of some people so badly and I know I wouldn't regret it, but the backlash of doing so just isn't worth it. I'd love to do, I'm not even gonna like snapping someone's arms and legs, especially when they deserve it (like one of those asshole's who are just asshole's for no reason) and I'd love to put people in their place like that.
But then I also want to be one of those people! I want someone to fucking come at me and I want to beat them down so h a r d. I don't want to think I'm a violent person, but I can't hep but think stuff like this. It's like I'm constantly contradicting myself and I don't know what I want to be or who I want to be or any of that. It's like a split personality, but not at the same time? Like two completely different sides of myself but I'm painfully aware of both and I don't know what to do about it.

Dear post >>49, hopefully I can inspire you to do something that will solve your confusion

If you can't decide on one side, you should try to take the middle ground, or, since you are aware of your condition, split your two urges into different roles.
I don't know anything about this topic, but I have an idea that sounds logical to me.
How about you take your aggresive urges into a fight-sport, such as boxing? That would enable and satisfy your aggressive side with reasonable context.
After you satisfy those urges you might find it less contradictory and easier to be nice to other people (or care less).

How does this sound?

>>46 I would love to be updated on your case! I am interested!

I regret being shy. I regret gaming. I regret overprotective parents. For now on I’ll strive for a more confident life style. (And quit gaming)

I regret hanging out with the wrong people and letting them dictate what should be important in my life. I regret starting a YouTube channel since I know no one will watch me and I pretty much set myself up for failure. I regret just settling for a full-time job which I fucking hate but it’s the only thing available to me. I regret trying to be part of the cool kids because I thought I would be disappointing my family if I didn’t. I regret not fucking killing myself already. I really regret not spending time doing things I wanted to in college.

I’m 24 years old and tbh I really want to be famous on YouTube, or at least have tens of thousands of subscribers. But I can’t because I’m not fucking original and I can’t compete with fucking shitpost culture nowadays so no way that’s going to happen. I feel if I don’t become famous I’m just worthless and will probably kill myself down the line. I’m nuking my channel later. It’s not worth it. I quit literally everything I tried because I’m not good enough or I don’t have the talent. I see so many people get famous without trying and me? I bust my ass and get NOTHING.

Fuck this new Internet shitpost meme fucking culture man. I hate it.

Dear post >>52, why don't you try being more original on your Youtube channel?

You say that you are not original and blame "shit-post internet culture". You should stop blaming others for your problems. Earn it and deal with it.

Earning a fanbase on YouTube is not as hard as it sounds, or as anyone might think. People love watching a person who enjoys what they are doing.

I would suggest you try to bring activities you enjoy doing on your own on YouTube. Such as reading forum posts, books, music or even something as trivial as a walk around the block.
If you can't win a fanbase with original content, win them over with your personality. Or an act, if you are that desperate. Use the algorithm to boost your videos. Make indirect advertisements and stream funny things.

There are so many ways, but if you give up, you will miss an oppurtunity.
If you truly want something, you will seek to obtain it.

Im sorry I act crazy. Everyone in my life including my parents say that im too complicated to love and i hurt them way beyond they are capable pf being hurt

I spent my whole grade 12 trying to grow up and tell my friends i like her. I thought my mom would be upset of me for going out with "someone whose thoughtless." I spent that whole year flirting with her and dropping hints that we'd be a cute couple. She knows I'm bi, I made sure she knows. We still hang out but I haven't gained the courage to say it. I feel like an idiot since i tell people to just go for it when I can't. I am worried she'll say that our friendship is done and I still haven't asked her yet.