I'm ready to freak out and break shit and if I don't get this energy somewhere now then I most certainly will. I don't want to talk about my problems, I just want to let you know I'm having them, then let this thread be buried to the bottom of the board.
This is literally the only way of letting out energy I have right now. I can't be any louder than the clicks on my keyboard in my house, as it's 5 am and several people are sleeping, but I could seriously kill them all with no remorse right now, so to prevent myself from doing so, I'm making this painful fucking wall of text that's being surprisingly helpful.
If I don't get this out now, and I don't break shit violently causing myself injury, I'll simply take the path of least resistance and cause myself physical pain until I'm not angered anymore.

What's the opposite Red wavelength of angry? passion? I can't turn anger into passion very well.
Red is anger, and by internal transmutation, you can change emotions into others depending on their quality, but I cannot for the fucking life of me change red anger into anything positive.

My throat hurts because of how much silent anger I've been in.

I'm really sorry if you took the time to read this.

It's no problem. And ya know what? Sometimes I feel like my parents could die violently as well. If you don't mind the consequences, you could do it if you like. Hell, if I didn't go to prison for it or be completely shunned by everyone else I know, I would totally do it, 'le~!

Shut up Leena, no you wouldnt.

I didnt say my parents though, I said everyone in my house. I have an inkling I'm a decent bit older than you.