Every single time me and my friend talk. I end up making her mad or sad. I overreact to things a lot. She doesn't need me doing this in her life. She's one of my only friends left and I don't want to loose her. I even had a fucking crush on her once. I don't want to cause her harm anymore. I've just been so fucked up about past friendships. My past friends only hung around me because they pitied me. They often used me as a way to do their bidding. Even forcing me to kick a guy in the balls for no reason once. Then, when they were bored with me, they left. Leaving me alone. She's the last one I have left and she is the last person I trust and care for. That's why I have to leave her. So that she can... stop having to deal with me. But if I leave then I will die. I know that. Help me.

>>1 Lol yo, first off you gotta chill! Maybe the people you were around were kind of mean, even asshole-like. That don't mean you gotta let it fuck up your friendship now. Just relax. Tell your friend how much it means to you for you guys to still be, friends. Even just let her know that the over reactions are just apart of who you are, bcus thats what it sounds like. Ask her if it really bothers you that much, if she's your friend she'll tell you the truth about how she feels. She might already know that you mean well and admires it about you, that you take things somewhat seriously. If not, you also gotta remember, that just how you had friends before, they come and go. You'll meet make more friends later regardless of what happpens. You just gotta keep an open mind. Sometimes being alone can lead you to some of the best adventures one person can ever have. Remember nothing's really as bad as you think. Trust me, I know.

>>2 Ok... I wrote that in the spur of the moment and it doesn't make much sense. You're right. I still have my family and that's something that I can't forget.

In one of the Lol threads, there was a picture joke.
First pics caption: In every group of friends there's a dick
Seconds pics caption: I'm sure everyone of you knows one
Third pics caption: If you don't then...
Fourth pic: *man shrugs*

>>4 ...Ah, I see. I must be a dick then. ^-^

Maybe you two should just work on your communication skills together. Make it so they know that if you are starting to offend them then they should tell you somehow.

>>1 You sound a lot like my best friend. He's always going on and on about how worthless he is and about how much happier I'd be if he was gone.

He's wrong. Extremely wrong. Maybe it's some sort of fucked up Florence Nightingale syndrome bs on my part, but I really don't mind having to deal with his bullshit. He makes me happy and he's really the only person outside of my twin sister that I can actually confide in. I don 't have to put up any sort of front around him- I just say what I feel and do what I want and fuck the repercussions. We're incredibly close and the only time I'm ever upset with him is when he /tries/ to push me away.I tell him that, but he never believes me (thank you, clinical depression).

But hell, he won't believe me, but maybe you will- it's pretty likely that if you just accept that you and she were friends (or whatever- romance advice is not my department) that everyone would be better off.

Also I really hope that you're not him. I mean, you're probably not, but I don't see anything in your post that would be a decent argument against you being him aside from the female name but, you know, girls, the internet, ect.

>>7 Yeah. I'm not him. Sorry. ^-^ I confronted her about how I was feeling (not the crush thing because holyshit that'd be too much.) and she said exactly that. Actually me thinking that she'd be better off without me is usually what makes her pissed off. Seeing what she's going through made me realize how much she needs me. I was just being selfish.