I feel like i cant tell anyone my feelings. I feel like everyone hates me...
I feel like no one even really cares
Like no one will give me their time to hear me out...
If i open up...theyll hate me..
Theyll get tired of me
They never want me to open up to them..
But if i do its too much
I cant tell anyone my feelings
Im never a friend
Im always the crappy friend
I cant cry in front of anymore
I dont want ur pity..
I want u to be there for me...
I need at least someone...something to rant to..
For someone to tell me its okay
For someone to care for me
To not ignore me
To not forget about me
To want to talk to me
...i want a friend...
Everyone that ive talked to about my problems...end up sick of me...
What do i do wrong
Why do i drive ppl away..

Whats wrong with me

You don't have to think about this. Opening yourself up puts you out there. At the least it's out there. What you're doing now is putting yourself out there. Yes, hurting yourself is the sign of a good person, but it won't be fair to others if you keep at it. The World isn't as bad as You think,
so smile. You opened yourself up just now so someone would listen. We listen. Those who listen only ask for you to make your future better, no matter how hard it is.

Ok so let me start by saying:
It's ok. Please know that even if the world seems to be against you, we will stand with you. If you want to talk, talk. If you want to rant, rant. We will listen. All I ask is one thing: get out there and live a good life.
The world isn't as bad as it seems.

Its ok. Some people are assholes. Trust me, I know. I was like you once, in your actual situation(w/ some slight differences). I felt so alone that I pushed everyone away and became a loner. It helped for a while but, deep down I still felt lonely. But somehow I was able to find a few friends that I can talk to, and you would be surprised at who they are. I mean people still treat me like an outcast, but I got my boys w/ me, and The Dollars. The Dollars are here for that same reason. You want to talk, we will listen, you want to rant, we'll rant and riot w/ u too. But at the end of the day. You still have to get out there and find your own group of people to call friends. It wont be easy, it will take putting yourself out there but when you do, you'll be surprised at how happy you are. Remember to keep an open mind. The world isn't as bad as you think

Maybe you don't have friends because you start most of your sentences with "I"

I don't know enough about your situation, but it could be how you open up to others. Maybe you do it out of the blue, too much, too little, the wrong place, or just to the wrong people. Over the years it takes me a while to trust someone to fully open up to them. But that is due to me always getting made fun of or being call a liar. I have scared people away before by saying the wrong things to them as well. That is a part of life, learning. Learning social skills varies from person to person. Some people learn it early on while others only learn a little over the course of life. Just be who you are and be with people you want to be with.

Also writing could help out a lot of just getting some of those bottled up emotions. Just write about anything that comes to mind and forget about structuring it. Just write what you want. Doing that I found out a lot more about myself and tendencies I have, or do.