my best friend has already decided they don't want to live to adulthood. I have an old family and those who i love are dying constantly and I begin to feel emptier each time. I've always had suicidal friends but none actually committed until last year. That's when I finally realized I can lose friends and family. Although i'm almost never happy I try to stay smiling so everyone thinks i'm alright, to stop them from feeling sad or worried. I love my best friend and i'm terrified at the thought of living without them. But they've just given up. They say they don't care about anything anymore and that hurts. I always show consideration for them, and I occasionally see glimpses of the old them, but that is rare. I'm so scared. I don't know how much more death I can take until I break. If they do commit, what will happen to me? I can't imagine being even more broken. I'm so scared.

I'm really sorry to hear that you are so scared. Being scared for friends and family is definitely difficult. I'm not sure if I can help, but I'm going to try to help you. Try talking to your friend. Help them see that the world isn't really that bad. Bring them outside, and show your friend the simple, but beautiful things that are always around them (such as birds, animals, trees, the sky). I have always found that when I am sad, being in nature and observing the beautiful things in nature always helps. Always be there for your friend, and really let them know that you are there, and willing to help them. Try doing some research online if you can about supporting a suicidal friend. There are plenty of websites that may help. Just try to help your friend in every single way you can. Help them have hope.
But if you can't change their mind, and if they do end up committing suicide, stay strong. Talk to someone about how you are feeling. Hold on to hope. Losing someone you care about is very painful, but remind yourself that you will be okay. Be strong, and have hope. I really, really hope that both you and your friend will be okay. I'm so sorry if this didn't help, I'm not that great at putting my ideas and thoughts into written words. Just remember that no matter what happens, you will be okay. I wish you good luck in your situation, and happiness in the present and future.

Its scary to know that someone you know can disappear and losing them is like losing a part of you. It's ok to be scared but hold your head up high and show them that a world where the sun shines, children smile, and you care isn't too bad.

I am sorry to hear that. You should try to show your friend that the world is really a good place. Read more about suicidal friends too, and how to help them. Give them some hope. Tell them that you are there. Their family must be there for them. Tell them that there are people worried for them. You are worried for them. Tell them that they mean a lot. Tell them how much they have changed your life in such a good way. Tell them you care so much about them, and you don't know how you will feel if they were to leave. I hope that our advice helps. I also hope that you find happiness in the end.

lis, I got an old family too so yeah it does scare the shit out of me. I havent experienced as many deaths as you probably have, but I'm just such a scaredy cat that from the age of 5 I'd wake up in the middle of the night to check if the people I cherished where still breathing underneath their thick blankets. But I've come to a point in time where I have to make a decision, and it is not a heartless one.


The people up there above me have got great advice. Just one piece of advice from me, care for them as long as you can, do it to the point where you won't have any regrets. It doesnt mean however waking up in the middle of the night like I do(did). It could be tiring but I'm sure your sanity will be saved in the end. Because you yourself have to live, and although it's wishful thinking not to, but those who are close to you will weigh on you. Which is why all humans learn how to carry them.

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thank you all so much.. honest to goodness you really did make me feel better about my situation, and i'm very appreciative. My friend is actually coming over to my house so we can spend time together, and i'll your advice and show them a good time and express my care and love for them. Thank you all so much <3

Hey hey hey, never watch any anime and see that the main characters always live on when their friends are dying like rats? You live on not for them, but for yourself

You're welcome, I'm so glad that I and the others could help. :)

>>7 You got that so fucked up.
You live on so the death of your closest friends wasn't for nothing.
It's not for you, it's so that they have meaning in your heart.

>>9 As long as "lis" takes it as advice to live on, alls good

Thank you all.. really. I actually spent time with the friend in question and things went a lot better than usual. They were more kind and open, the two of us actually had fun. We talked about things we have in common again and everything went well. Just wanted to update those who were curious.

>>11 Any time! I am so glad that it worked out!!! :)

I'm so happy you are all alright (^_^)