hey im ranting here so yeah haha well my problem here was that my mom and me didint get along,we always shout to each other she thinks im a useless child that i dont deserve to live, there are also many times i had been tried suiciding yet my friends always held me back, one day it came to worse cause im really got pissed at my life i climb the toppest floor in our school building and climb up there but when i was about to fall my best friend (P) caught my hand she held me tight and say that if im gonna jump seh will too, i love her too much for her to die with me ,we had been best friends ever since,im really tearful that time i think about killing myself yet my friends keep pulling me back and say its all gonna be fine, i know its not my end but the happenings in mylife was diffrent, my mom hates me she think that her life with my dad will be more good if i werent born,when my dad come back home to see us(cause he was a seaman he only come home in just 2 or 3 months only to stay with us) ,all my dad knows is that me and my mom get along yet that was a lie, i cut every now and then yet i learned to stop, ilearn to fake smiles to lie and to know how cruel the world is, sometimes i dont eat i starve myself only playing video games, i gamble, i do get illegal information for money and stuff , all of these my parents dont know im literally a black sheep of the family there is also one time i ran away home then there i met my big brother and he lend me his condominium since he was traveling for business too, my life continues like that into 2 years until i was sent back to my parents house, i cant really stop thinking suicidally, im getting insane all my friends help yet i cant stay like a normal person

We have a Complaints Thread.
http://dollars-bbs.org/personal/res/1331875337.html

Uh >>2 this is the personal board so nobody should be posting in a fucking complaints thread. This manz has some serious life probs.

OP you cant keep living this way. You need to start a new life without your parents in your way (Keep the friends you have around you) and find supportive people. Look around at everyone else here. Suicide is never the answer. Try to find the light.

I will not lie to you, I won't say "it will be ok"
because I do not know if it will or not, no one does. that is why we live. to find out. >:( and if you keep doing all this stupid shit your not going to have a happy future.
AND why the FUCK would you fucking give up on life NOW?! you have been through SO much bullshit why stop now? why all back down hill when you made it this far???
Listen I am not telling you what to do,if you keep up this bullshit behavior starving, gamboling, and illegal shit, then your mother is right. >:( cause anyone who does that is a bad person.
So why not STOP and prove her dumbass wrong?! Why not become a better person then her?! get a job, finish school, and when your old enough LEAVE her dumbass behind and never look back, make a life for yourself and don't fall into a trap, don't be the person she has called you.
Be better then her. And get your act straight other wise you will be useless >:(

>>2 Vomplaints thread is a little different; basically something people want to
Get off their chest and are not seeking advice for anything. Bc he said "ranting" I thought it was something that needed moving too, bc "ranting" here basically means the same as "don't mind me".

It seems to me your main cause of frustration is your mother. Don't let yourself be beaten by the burdens she puts on you, it will really get better once you leave the household.
And don't think about your life as something that only affects you or your family, your friends care deeply for you and having such nice people and being able to add to their life is something valuable on its own.