I really dont know who to talk to this about but after reading alot of threads on this website, i see alot of great people who can help me out. I have grown in a pretty strict family where values and honor and things like that are pretty important, but most importantly religion. I have constantly been told not to be myself and if i tried, i would face severe consequences. I had pretty awesome and aspiring dreams as a child but i started losing them and now i have nothing to live for. Because of everything that happened, i am now a very selfish person and care for nothing but myself. I have great friends but because of my parents who keep badmouthing them, i cant keep a close relationship with them. And because of my personality, i really dont care about them sometimes even though they are one the best and most supportive people i know. I cant trust anyone, and the feeling of loneliness kills me every single day and i hate. I dont know what to with my life and how i should deal with the lonliness. Thank you in advance for any help.

P.s keep up the great work on helping others out. :)

Hi there, in my opinipn I think you should start with little things. Maybe get a hobby you are really into which will help you get away from your parents for a few hours. It could also be a way to liberate your frustration. If you say you are lonely, your hobby could be one that involves being with other people: maybe voluntering (to help other people) or a sport which requieres forming a team.
You shouldn't let your parents shape you and decide for you what you want to be, because then you'll never be truly happy.
Try new things, if you are old enough then you can travel or go live on your own. That will get you away from them and it will give you new perspectives. And more importantly, talk to people.

Q-1 is right, try to find a hobby/activity you enjoy. And I think you are being a little to self-critical. You don't sound selfish to me, just afraid of being alone. Don't let your fears get in the way of your relationships. Try something new and look to the bright side of things. Have you tried talking to your parents about your friends or is that out of the question?

Stand up to your parents, it is your life and you should be thankful to them for raising you, but by no means are they allowed to push their values onto you. Especially religion is something everyone should decide for themselves, the same goes for friendship. Don't take drastic measures of protest, just voice your opinnion.
As for your friends, you really don't sound selfish, save for that "sometimes not caring about them" part. What exactly do you mean by that? If you mean not always having a shoulder to cry on for them, I think that's fine, some people are better at that than others.

I agree with ShinAttha except i think drastic measures may need to be made. Too much bullshit has been fed to you, and if you arent yourself, then you are a fake ass motherfucker. Dont let anybody take away what you believe in. Be creative and be yourself.

Honestly, the fact that i got a reply made me soo happy. I have never felt so good, thank you guys so much.

Thank you Q-1 I will try ur suggestion out
Kawaiineko-sensei thank you as well, and talking to them is out of question as i have tried and it didnt work out.
ShinAttha thank you, and i mean that if they end up in a problem and because of them my parents let thier anger out on me that day, i wud end up channeling my anger, which is something i do on an impulse and regret later so i try not helping them out of fear of getting in trouble.
Im sorry i dont know japanese but whoever you are, thank u too. Tho i dont agree with swearing ur advice was great as well!

>>7 It's read Ruu, but I'm not really good at Katakana...
So your parents are the root of the problem, you should really try confronting them. Have a serious talk and show them how you feel and think.
Glad to hear we were able to help you, at least a little bit ^^