Im struggling with my anxiety and depression. I dont know what to do. I weaned off my medication because it did not work. Im stuck in the hardest part-- trying to find a new suitable medication, and trying to find a therapy schedule. Im trying really hard but everything seems so scary. I dont want to try anymore.
Please help. I am having a very difficult time trying to find things to distract my mind from the thoughts I know are no good. Please help me. If you have ever been suicidal, depressed or diagnosed with anxiety, what did you do? When you were on the brink, what did you think of to pull yourself out of it? Please help. Any and all contributions are appreciated
-Glass

Merry Cheer here! Might I suggest listening to some cheery music?

What kind? Any recommendations?

1. Don't make your own thread if what you say is pretty much the same as everyone else.
2. We have a suicide hotline thread
http://dollars-bbs.org/personal/res/1370563145.html

>>3 I Love It (I Don't Care) by Icona Pop. It doesn't matter how I'm feeling what I'm doing, this song will always get me pumped and excited.

You have to do it right though. If you're not screaming "AND LET IT BURN!!!" "I DONT CARE", and jumping on the bed and the sofa, with this booming in the background, then you're not doing it right.

>>4 Whaaat you're recommending people to the thread? Didn't see that coming. Wasn't even gonna bother try cuz I thought I'd come off as an asshole.

Thanks mag, I will have to remember that.

The only advice I can really give you is to find little things to be thankful for, or to be happy about.

In 5th and 6th grade, I was severely depressed - enough to look at my parent's kitchen knives and be tempted to do something drastic. The source of my depression was because of what I looked like - bluntly put I was overweight. Even at a young age, I was scared about what people saw when they looked at me. It's minor now that I think about it, but back then - for those two years, I wanted to die. I lost weight the summer before 7th grade with a healthy diet, but even now I'm still scared of being told I'm overweight.

Through 7th and 8th grade, I was basically just empty. I wanted to be happy, but honestly all I could do was think about everything bad and nothing good. I've gotten better now a rising Junior in High school, but that mental strain is still there.

The whole point of me rambling (sorry about that by the way ^^'') is because I want to tell you the exact process of what happened to me. I don't know exactly how it got better, but I know that what dragged me out of it was expressing myself--everything I felt--through art. Cheesy I know. Art gave me the push I needed to look up to the skies and think wow, I'm happy to be alive. I found beauty in smiling, and making other people smile, in talking to strangers, in greetings and in goodbyes.

Perhaps try to start by trying to express yourself through anything really: art, music, literature, academics, sports--ANYTHING. And during this time do not listen to what anyone else says. It's a delicate period--well it was for me--so surround yourself with people who will appreciate you and what you express. It'll be hard at first, a complete hell of tears and you just got to trust me on this-- YOU CAN HELLA DO IT.

After you've gain confidence, try to look at the simple beauties in the word. I'm not talking about Calvin Klein purses and penthouse lofts. I"m talking about blowing dandelions and watching the seeds fly from your finger tips, or the leaves of a nice autumn day. Simple beauties.

I have no idea if this helps. And I'm sorry it's so long ^^'' but I had a lot to say. And you know, Glass can be vulnerable, but it's hella stubborn. And even when broken, it still packs quite a punch because honestly. who in their right mind would walk on glass? So don't let anyone push you over or knock you down, or walk all over you. Simply push them to the side and tell them "I ai'nt got time for your bulls*t"

Remember to smile ^.^~~~ I"m rooting for you~~!!!!!!!!!!!!

>>9 Thank you very much. Ive been having trouble doing many things lately, which is why I came here to look for maybe some other routes to get me out of this... well, funk. I havnt really been able to draw like I used to.. im anxious that Im not good enough and then I have no inspiration because nothing looks pleasing to me. I can barely find interest in anything (Which is something my doctor says is a symptom of atypical depression)

Thank you, especially for the last sentence "im rooting for you" ...thats all I really need right now, is a little bit of... idk, confidence? Stuff like that really helps. I guess its hard to do anything when you lack belief in yourself.

My sister struggled with this and I really don't know what to tell you. But I'll try I think you should do somthing for yourself buy yourself somthing take a day off or find someone to hang out with. I feel depressed sometimes because my siblings pick on me. So what I do is find a special place for me do what I want to do. Just enjoy yourself throw a studio ghibli marathon for you and friends or family! Have fun!

all i can say is to seek people to support you. it's the best i can think.
having someone to help you cope with the pain can be somewhat hard, but you can do it.
i hope the best for you

Depends on the reason of your anxiety/depression. I've been into that point in life where all I can think about is kill myself in any situation. Crossing the road - thought of jumping in front of a car. Alone at home - though of using a belt to break my neck. Try to find something that will really take your mind off the shits on this world. Try learning on how to play a guitar, or try some new exciting sports.

Now I'm starting to wish OP posted in the suicide hotline thread. These ideas are really important. Now I guess. I have to screen cap em and post em there.