It's been 2 weeks now and each day i've barely gotten 5 hours of sleep. I feel like im chained and theres constantly something bad happening. Today my father was hospitalised and this was the final straw for me, I'm going mad. My head aches my blood boils but im not angry, im just fighting something in me. and ill tell you why.
I've been so scared for my parents, they're really old and I worry for them way too much. Tonight my dad has to sleep alone at the hospital because the staff dont allow visitors to stay over. I cant take it. I cant take the fact that my fathers there and im here, snug in a house not seeming to have a care, not knowing what sort of fate he has. I'm going to stay up but what will that do? I want to do something more, I want to be there for him! I'm still a Learner driver and ive never gone out on my own. I want to take the car and drive down to the hospital, and stay close to there. of course i'll get told off and people will worry but you dont know how insane i am right now. its full on winter here and im boiling hot. What should i do...am i doing the right thing?
By"I'm going to go" I'm assuming you mean suicide... you may not give a dam about my opinion but I believe that suicide is a horrible thing and will cause more grief than joy... Especially if you fail at suicide you will be in even more pain... so just don't do it. I hope I helped and I hope you MAKE the right decision for you and your friends/family... My personal recommendation is to see a therapist or just tell your family/friends how you feel
