So I know this is pretty stupid the fact that my problems seems to be very common. Comes to a guy! ikr? totally did not see that coming huh? (kidding!) Trying to lighten up my mood a bit by making lame jokes.
Is it working?
Nah
My problem is tht i dated this guy for almost two years. he cheated on me broke up with me (found out he cheated weak after he broke up with me) almost got tht girl pregnant then they broke up n he came to me. ik ik should of just kicked his srry ass away then right? At first I did, but then I fell into the false hope he gave me. Totally predictable huh?
Been like that for a week now, he just up n threw me away today. Back to his we never going to be together again f*** up speech. AS strong as i seem to sound to other ppl i ended up breakin down and still am at the moment as btw it just happened like 10 minutes ago. Idiot right? I mean me. My friend is tellin me that the guy (my ex) lost one of the most amazin women (apparently me, which i hardly believe no offense to my friend) he knows (my friend).
At the end I just wanted to rant to everybody and nobody. Ive been holding this up for to long I felt like I was gonna lose it if I dont let some thins out somehow. Upsettin right? I know there must be something.. someone better out there for me but I cant find it in my heart to believe anymore. Honestly I feel utterly crushed at the moment and I also feel ashamed and hate myself cause of how stupid I am for fallin for false pretenses. I honestly dont know what to do now.. -sighs-

There is absolutely something better out there for you. I can't tell you when or even if you'll find it, but you're not going to find it with him so don't even bother looking there anymore. I know it's hard to fend off loneliness after you lose someone important, but make sure you're making decisions that'll help steer you towards long term happiness. Don't settle for anything just to feel better, because it'll eventually end with you feeling the same or even worse. Patience is a virtue

Your right, but I guess I end up learning the hard way. Honestly Im done. Y keep up hope when ur tryin to find the feelins in someone who at the end doesnt wanna take a chance for you huh? Im feelin better now thanks to my friend. THis time im sure if he appears I can kick his ass to the other direction. Guess I'm tired of havin my heartbroken by the same guy.

That guy is a total dick. It takes time to heal a broken heart. At least you didn't do anything wrong, he did. It isn't your fault at all. Move one and you learn from it. He had his chance to mend things and he turned around and f'd himself over.

By the sound of it you are a pretty good, or strong, person by giving him a second chance. It takes a lot of emotional strength to give someone a second chance when they f'd you over. But he doesn't realize that and you should let him go. He only has himself to blame too.

There are always better guys out there too. Maybe you learned some new red flags to watch out for too.

LOL. -_-
"The guy is the total idiot"?
That's what all of you can exactly say?
Well, what if you guys are the "guy" he is saying?
We don't know the true and exact story,so we shouldn't just say direct and harsh words because of hearing this girl ranting.
What if we heard the guys case?
Wouldn't we gonna be like
"Oh, she should forgive you because you didn't mean to do that blah blah blah or it's just an accident, she's overreacting blah blah"?
Am I right?
So in this case, I can tell that no one is right.
MAYBE your Ex won't get another girl if you made your action as a girlfriend, not perfectly but a satisfying act. Or maybe he is really the bad guy here. Either of that, you'll still break up with him and he would still leave you.
Maybe you luck something for him, maybe you're dragging him too much, maybe you don't make him free sometimes etc. situations. or not, well who knows? the guy isn't here right?
But to your case as the broken hearted here, move on. Make him see you're strong, that it has nothing to do with you. I know it's hard, but keep on practicing to forget him, and wait for your heart to heal while enjoying the changes that he made you change.
Take note: Not saying the guy is a total jerk,womanizer,dick or something and also not saying you're an overreacting exgirlfriend.

Thanks Sid and I get ur point Yuri. I guess if he told his side ppl would be like wat u said. In all honesty i cant get myself to hate him, but I also don't know wat it was bout me tht he turned out to treat me this way. At the end he knew which buttons to touch to get me to do wat he wanted, I guess I realized I cant be like tht anymore. I dont exactly want to give out to much bout the situations he been, but truth is for some reason he decided to lie cheat n treat me with no respect at the end. I honestly let him do wat he wanted except drink n smoke i already told him y, its not good for him. but thts it, im not like those girl who says no u cant be friends with tht girl or come to me instead of hangin with friends or thins like tht. I dont like tht, i fully trusted him to make his choices, n he made his choice now. If I sounded angry it was mostly to myself cause i knew in my heart it wasnt goin to work out the whole givin out another chance but i didnt wanna live with the wat ifs. so messed up huh? T^T