Hey guys. It's me again. The one with the constant senpai problems. Just wanted to say, everything is over and done with. I got to talk to him on his last day and I found out how he feels about me. He didn't feel anything special towards me. But I didn't know what else I was expecting. But I finally came through to him with those three little words. Aaaaand that's it for the little senpai-kouhai relationship.

But since the guy was a co president as well as a senior, the new board was elected for the 2015-2016 school year. Not that I don't want the new board members to run the club, I just can't imagine the club without senpai. Without the one that led us to third place overall in our tournament. BY THE WAY THANKS SO MUCH FOR THE MISSION REQUEST, we won the spirit video and that helped my school place third overall!! We made HISTORY in that competition and it's thanks to you guys!! Anyways I hate to say this but I fear for the future of my club. I feel like we won't gain as much popularity as we have before. We won third place. We basked in the glory of our school's wins. I don't feel like there is anyone better than senpai that could successfully lead the future of this club to victory. I don't know what point I'm trying to get across but I think I really didn't get my point across to him. Sure I got to tell him that I like him but I never really considered the future of my club. I was nominated as PRC for the club but I didn't get the position. I was going up against someone that beat me by the landslide.

But ugh I keep straying away from my point. What do I do, I can't really trust these new board members. I can't imagine my club without him. I'm really gonna miss him. He said he would be back. But I can't imagine him coming to open-house events just sitting there and not preaching his heart out like he used to. He has his graduation ceremony on Friday and I have to take a regents on that day too. I don't think I'll be seeing him until October. But right now I'm just really scared. His best friend is going to Cornell. I don't think there's anyone in my enormous school that doesn't know how strong their bond is. But why do the seniors' separations hurt me so much? I barely know these people and yet it still hurts me to see them go off into their own colleges to pursue their dreams. It hurts me so much I need someone to tell me it's going to be okay. I need someone to tell me that the new board will be as successful as those in the past. I'm really scared right now.

First of all, respects for handling the whole confession stuff so easily, that's almost too mature if you ask me.^^
You are projecting your personal feelings onto the success of your club, while it might be true that your seniors were a great board, the fact that you lost your special someone in the club weighs heavier.
The new board might be better or worse, who knows? I think you should just try your hardest to turn it into something even greater than before. Even if they turn out to be worse, you'll still achieve something or move someone and of course it's going to be just as enjoyable...considering the activities, posibly not the people. There will always be times better or worse than the past ones, just make the best out of it.
On a sidenote: The song that played while I was writing this comment was "don't worry, be happy", so that's gotta be a good sign!

Thanks so much for the support! I'm sorry I saw this so late too :(