I sometimes wonder why I heaven't had the roller coaster of emotions that other people claim to have when they find someone they "like". Whats wrong with me?

Nothing, people are used to exaggerate when it's about feelings.

I think it's just depending of the poeple; some can have really big emotions, and others, just feel a few thing... You just have to understand yourself (but it's hard, i know...--) So you're not wrong, just a bit less active (or more honest whene you speak to others)

Meh. Before this year I never though about it and never felt it.

I am talking about this year, but really its not even love and its truly complicated. Its basically blind devotion and trust as I made a decision after events... I am willing to die for that person. I just feel that for once I wouldn't regret getting betrayed by such a person `.`