>>2 Actually here in our country, a documentary was once shown that even boys under 10 years of age knows that they were transgender and came out of it.
Well, maybe try talking to your mom first. We all know that moms are really our number 1 supporter in every day life. They understand us better than anybody else. Maybe she'll talk you out on probably consequences of your situation, or maybe she'll shed some light if what your feeling is genuine. Is not that I don't believe you, but it's just sometimes, we're so keeping things to ourselves that what we'll only trust is our own instincts, our own understanding, that of course, not most of the time are correct and acceptable.
Anyway, whatever happens, I wish you all the best!