IN essence, I feel that the people in my life are all moving to do their own thing, and I am being left behind. Friends, family, lovers, all of them, are doing stuff. And I feel that they are getting ahead of me, and I just haven't found my own place. I feel alone for some reason still. And I feel that I've lost strong connections in my life. I find this to be the saddest part about all this, that everything simply... ended. And thats it. All the things that happened, and it just ended.

This is a critical point in my life. I am 23 years old and currently on my last semester to finish my B.A. in English. There is nothing special about my life so to say, and yet at the same time, everything is. Well, what I mean is the following, I have made connections with people as we all do in our life. I made friends, good friends, and I've fallen in love so deeply with a girl that I felt everything that happens to her to be part of my responsibility. During my relationship with her, I always felt responsible for her happiness, and while Im not rich or anything I did try my best under the circumstances to make her happy. This is mainly due to the fact that she had Muscular Dystrophy, her body was just going to stop functioning at some point, yet the world treated her just like trash. Her mother had gone crazy, and took her to another country, the one I live in, from the US, then the department of the family just took her and got her into the system and then her caretaker mother was just treated her badly, yet, she was also the mother that raised her. But just like any couple, we had our shortcomings and our fears, no matter how much we wanted to be together, and circumstances and our own personal demons made our relationship a tough process. In the end, we are not together anymore. A lot of things happened, and I've told the longer version to other people, but I just can't seem to find peace in any answer that they give me. The world is just too absurd a place, and this story, if told fully, can be even more absurd. I know this. In the end, she found another person to fall in love with, she asked for my feelings about the matter and I gave her my blessing. But that also means we will not get to talk soon. My brother moved to the US to get work, my best friend in college got married and got pregnant, she doesn't visit me anymore. My new group of friends is already making plans to continue their life, and I don't know how that is going to affect everything else. In way, how I feel is just that the world is moving too fast for me. I can't keep up with. I feel alone, I feel left behind, and I want to catch up, but I don't know how. Please, if you feel this way too, talk to me. I want to understand too.

Hello!
Well, yeah, I feel the same way too, especially with friends.
I think you just have to do what you like and keep moving on like they do.
Relax a bit.
Just think about all the awesome times you spent with all these people! Isn't this amazing?
Yeah, the world may be absurd, but I think that this is how it has to be, and it's fine.
Don't forget that this world is also beautiful, and it will be, if we keep it "clean".
If you wanna chat with me, I would like, too!

I use this email: otranto.dollars@gmail.com

send me a message and lets chat one day lol.

@Artemis1311,
It seems tough for you out there man, its good to see that you still haven't given up and took your time to reach out!
See, firstly, you don't have to keep up with anything in life, Take everything at your own pace! Friends, Family, people come and go, connections are made, they are broken, it happens, its just another way of the absurd laws of nature and human kind. But the thing is, to always keep a strong connection with yourself! If life makes you feel left out then do something with life that makes you feel special and extraordinary! Personally, Even I have been through a stage where I felt absolutely left out, helpless, hopeless, but the fact is that, people learn from it! Make a change! Not looking at your friends, or your family, or any of the things that have left you behind! Make a change for yourself! Make a change for your own smile! It doesn't matter if its as trivial as taking out the garbage on Mondays instead of Wednesdays, or taking an ice cold shower instead of a scorching hot one! As long as you can confidently feel that you have the power to drive your life at any speed you want, change at any moment you want! You can do anything.
So keep your hopes high, because tomorrow's another day, and another chance to change!

Hope you will have a wonderful smile on your face! Whether it be today or tomorrow!

Hi,

I have read your story and I have to say that I can completely understand the situation you are faced with because it is so similar to my own.

I also had someone I fell in love for quite a long time and our relationship ended about one year ago. Before she came into my life, I thought there will never be a person I could show everything of me. She came. And she left. Afterwards, realizing that nobody stays forever.. friends, lovers and not even family, was a hard experience.

"Memento mori"

Everyone is lonely by being an author of their own story. But they can at least write some pages together to keep the loneliness away, until the day they die.
I think you urge yourself to write something you would call wonderful, like getting married, getting pregnant, finding someone you can fell in love with, and so on.
I think you need a base in your life. A passion, something to hold on even when life is moving too fast.
Relax and let things happen. There are ups and downs.
But I am sure you will never be completely alone.
Until the last page of your book.

If this was helpful in any way smile for me.
And especially for yourself.

Thank you all! XD I actually feel better now. :) Baka_Soda, KuroKaito and hiruma, all of you guys! XD Thank you!
If you want to keep in contact, send me a message: otranto.dollars@gmail.com

And Therm too. He sent me a message too. XD