this is just another anonymous person venting about their personal stuff. what i like about this is that no one knows who you really are, but at the same time you know that someone is listening(or looking). i apologize ahead of time if this becomes a long post. i'm not sure how much i'll end up saying for this is all on a whim. i apologize beforehand if none of this stuff makes sense. my mind is just everywhere.
where to start? ...there has been so much on my mind lately that it's kind of hard to stay focused on one thing at a time. within the past year there has been so much change in my life, yet it also feels like nothing has changed at all. the people i once called my friends are all now just people who i've known in my past. i know people come and go all the time; it's a part of life. but what happens when everyone goes and all there is left is one person? i ended up becoming really attached to this person hoping that they won't leave me behind too. this person is the only person who knows the true me and still accepts me. if you guys haven't guessed it by now, yes i am in love with this person (again). i've done horrible things to them, was selfish, and pushed them away during the time my life was becoming stressful. but i begged them to wait for me until i cleared my head. we aren't dating or anything, but we act like it. a couple months later my life started to calm down and i tried to pick things back up again with that person. of course things weren't the same. i pushed them away so much to the point they weren't sure how to feel anymore. and since then things still haven't been the same. somethings are slowly getting better, but it also feels like things are falling apart. we talk less, don't see each other as often. it's gone to the point where i'm so scared that i can't sleep at night. (being an over-thinker sucks haha). i'm scared that i might be replaced by someone else, or that they might soon leave me too. i want to talk to that person about how i'm feeling, but i can never find the right words. and i'm also afraid about what might happen. love is complicated. it's hard. it hurts. it's scary. but i can't find myself to give up on this person. i feel like if i give up now then i'll only be making the same mistake i did last time.
loneliness and a troubled love life... what an odd and terrible mix it is haha. i've thought of many different solutions and scenarios in my head, but sometimes things don't play out the way i want and i get scared to the point of crying, or discouraged to the point of utter frustration.
i'm glad this site has this section. it gave me a place to just speak my mind without worrying about people knowing who i am. i don't know who will end up reading this, or who will just skip over it, but i don't really care. i just needed a place to vent where i know at least someone would acknowledge my presence.
and just to get this out of the way, i'm not some 12 y/o emo, lonely, person. (all of that is irrelevant anyway). i'm a young adult who's still learning about this unknown journey of life. i'm still learning and experiencing all the different types of hardships that come with it just like everyone else. and just like everyone else, i'm looking for that bright future. life just keeps coming and throwing more obstacles my way, but i still know not to give up no matter how much i'm going through. i am the stupidest person i know. this whole post probably doesn't even make sense now that i think about it haha. i'm really pathetic, stupid, lonely, and hopeless. but that's a part of who i am, and i have to make the best out of my worst qualities with my better qualities. but where are you supposed to start?

well this is just a suggestion from another young adult like you but try doing and saying spontaneous things like instinct when you talk to people and ad i dont mean irrelevant stuff but what you feel dont put it in simple words but actions i sont know if im explaining myself but thats just a suggestion.
i always thought that im not the only one who thinks like that we dont have identical thoughts but i think we have quite similar ways of thinking even though are situation are different in my case im pushing everyone away and might leave to explore the world without money like a hobo kinda but i also have this one person that knows the real me but hes my best friend like a brother to me i prefer him from my family.
well my point is i dont really find a meaning in living a normal life and dont have anyone i love but since you do i guess just express yourself with actions at the moment because sometimes things dont go as planned and another thing is dont have any regrets in your life if you do something be sure your willing to suffer the consequences be good or bad.
i dont know if what i said had anything to do but i just wanted to reply since i think we are in some way alike you might not have read this completly or you may have but just think this do what you want not what is right i dont want this to sound selfish but it i guess it is selfish.

Hi [Anonymous] :) I hope you don't mind me giving you advices hahahaha, anyways... you said your an over-thinker, right? so basically, if you do something wrong you overthink it. Just like me :D my advice is, talk to her/him straightforwardly! If you stutter just keep going. As an over-thinking person like you, I would always get bothered and sometimes I wouldn't sleep or eat just because of that single problem, the only way to stop worrying is face it head-on!! you won't get over it if you don't talk to her/him! no matter how embarrassing it is, she/he will understand because you put your heart in it and I bet she/he would feel the sincerity; you did say she/he is the only one who didn't leave you, right? out of all those friends he/she is the only one who stayed behind, so build up the courage and go for it!! I know it's easier said than done, but trust yourself :) Face it head on^^

-AKira