I have no idea how it got this way. Well no that would be a huge lie. I'm currently om the street (7/11) heading on my way to a 24 hour store/pharmacy with nowhere to go. My parents have recently kicked me out for finally voicing out my opinion. I've kept alot of things to myself, kept myself quiet, followed their rules, and got great grades for myself. The only problem is..they can't accept that I'm 18. I've done everything that I can that I can handle myself. It seems there is no problem right?

The thing is they chased me out of my house when I barely got my stuff with me. I only have my cellphone(which I pay for) , charger, wallet, clothes, and a sleeping bag.

I could not afford to buy a car due to not being allowed to get a license. They have been using guilt trips and my father had called me a demon and attempted to hurt me physically. I know that I should have bear these treaments until I got my own place and car, however it started to begim to eat at my self-esteem and I've felt that I was not being unreasonable.

I have no friends or relatives that are nearby and I don't want to burden any of them. I just want to let out how I feel here. I am glad to have found this site.

Hi! I'm from the Philippines and this might not be of any help but if you need someone to talk to, I'm always here~ ^-^ I'll be your friend. :) I know it's hard but don't worry!!! I'm sure everything will be fine! ^-^

Be strong, okay?

Everything will be fine. :) Just be patient~ ^-^

>>2 I lived in the Phillippines for quite some time. I haven't slept at all and it's 3:16 AM here. I plan on heading to a local church and ask if I could rest up. Afterwards I'm heading to work and try to see if I could stay there for a day or so. Thanks you for the support =)

>>5 that's awful DX please stay strong seeing as not many people do...we are all with you!^^

>>6 Thank you Miyuki. I'm currently staying temporarily at my workplace.

Thats horrible! i wish you the best and please stay strong! i am glad that for now you at least have a place to sleep.

Glad to hear that you've got a couple resources that can help you out for now at least. There are a lot of resources out there to help keep you fed and get you back on your feet so keep your head in the game and you'll survive. Sorry that I can't personally offer much help (unless you manage to trek your way up to the midwest, lol) but for what it's worth, we're rooting for you. Keep us posted.

>>8 Thank you for your concern. My boss was kind enough to let me stay temporarily.
>>9 I am grateful for your advice, I'll keep you as updated as I can.

I was contemplating about what I should do next. I've decided on searching for a cheap studio close to my work. I've been trying to conserve most of my batteries on my phone since it is the only way for anyone to contact me, right now as I'm posting I only have my cellphone to use.

Thank you all again for the moral support.

I've thought about what I really needed if I planned to live on my own. I have enough money to rent a studio for about 5 months without a job since I've almost prepared myself for something like this to happen...I have to think rationally and try not to let my emotions get in the way.

But I can't help but feel..I can't describe exactly how I feel but I will try. I wanted to believe this was a nightmare, I'd wake up to my family and pretend everything is alright.

I'm conflicted since I shouldn't feel this way about my family, I feel guiltt even though I know I stood up for myself. It's so contradicting...

I'm glad and upset about my circumstance. I will continue to look forward or try to at the best of my abilities.

>>1 It's your own fault for not shutting up and being greatful.

>>13 I don't think it's the point of whose fault it is.

For people in his situation, they go along with their parents in everything they do and show respect, even when their parents are in the utter wrong. Often they can't admit that change has to happen but it takes the child to show them. It's not necessarily the child being selfish but rather, feel guilty about how long they're going to live off their parents and have that close minded state.

A child voicing their opinion to their parents is taboo in many cultures, but one must realise that in a family, everyone is involved.

>>13 I should have bear with it and I'm aware of my actions. I just don't believe parents have a right to abuse and treat their children like property. I love my parents and I'm conflicted and feel guilty about standing up for myself. At the same time, what they were doing isn't something
anyone should do to another person.

>>14 As harsh as it sounds, I've only receive shelter and clothing (until I was old enough to get a job)from my parents. Shelter is the only thing and I was grateful for that. Food was something I had to get on my own when I turned ten. I didn't have friends and relative that were constant in my life since my parents were always moving.

Thank you both for responding.

I think it was the right thing not to bear with it. I think I can kind of understand how you feel about it, because I distance myself from my family and also feel... somehow guilty. I don't know of any way to get rid of this guilt , but I always try to keep in mind that I just try to do what I personally think to be the best. If someone crosses the line and does something unacceptable I would judge them accordingly regardless of whether they are a stranger to me or family. I don't really know why, but I think it's fair this way.
You should probably not concern yourself too much with your family right now. They kicked you out and now you are an individual and need to survive alone, so try concentrating on that. There will probably be enough time left to approach your family again after you established your life.
Most importantly though: Don't give up, I believe that you can handle this.
Hope this helps a little.

You should look at this as an unfortunately severe opportunity to take your life out of their hands and into yours and to point it in a direction you'd like to go. It sounds like you're doing alright so far, so try and be as optimistic about it as you can. And don't worry about your guilt right now, there's plenty of time in the future to try and reconcile what happened, but you definitely did not need to be putting up with that any longer.

I haven't read everyone else's responses as of yet, but from the way that you describe this it sounds like this incident was going to happen eventually. Try and reach out to some friends to stay at their houses and see if there are any places nearby that are willing to hire someone who just turned 18 for some work for cheap. It's going to be hard for a while, but I'd be glad that you are at least alive and that you can do things on your own now.

Did you feel better now good now keep your hard work