So me and my ex have been finding excuses to see eachother and last weekend it happened, we kissed we slept together stuf and stuff. But because we have been though a lot of BS I had to talk confront her on the meaning of that, because I still have feelings for her like the idiot I am and getting hurt by her again is out of the picture.

So she told me that what happened last weekend could never happen again, that she liked me as a friend but her heart belonged to some one else and it was not fair that I got hurt again.

... So why the hell did you tryed to talk to me again, why the hell you called me so many times, why the hell did you kissed me when I was doing all I could to forget you. Were you that lonely that you had to use me for comfort... As these thoughts flew in my mind I said the thing I should have said from the start.

I said to forget that I exist and never talk to me ever.
She asked me not to be mad at her, said sorry. But I told her thanks for the honesty but I could never be just her friend not after she tried to use me. In spite all the things she did to me, in spite all the hurt, I was still in love with her and I being her friend is impossible, be well I have to take care of what remains of my sanity.

And that's how it's done folks, how you don't get into friendzones, by loving yourself a little bit, even if it hurts like hell, even if you cry. What she did to me was not correct and I was a fool to fall for her again. Now I blocked all ways of communication, I have had enough of loving a person who does not even know what love really means.
I don't wish her badly, for I still love her, I just wish to forget her and move on with my life, no way I'm gonna endure any more pain.

Just wanted to share my little story.

Be pretty classic if she has something I like to call "gone-goggles", where you look back on something fondly because you don't like and can't accept change. Gl in your future endeavors m8.

Poor you

It hurts so much I wish I was dead...

I'm sorry this happened to you. All I can do is offer you a hug and remind you that things will get better eventually. I promise. "Life isn't as bad as you think."

I hope they do, cus I still love her and my sadness is starting to affect my ability to work. It's so stupid... we could hang out for hours, speak endlessly we liked the same things enjoyed the same things she was the kind of person I wanted to be with. Fate oh cruel fate.
Sorry the ranting but I need to vent out, other way I'll go insane and text her...