My family and relatives all call me a liar. It started about a week ago, we were supposed to go jogging but then i had a fever.So they cancelled, my cousins were disappointed and just kinda ignored me, especially after my fever subsided that afternoon. And today, there's this fun run event and We were all registered. But last night, i think I pulled a muscle in my leg when I tripped down the stairs, but I thought it was okay after I slept on it. But a while ago, when I woke up, it really hurt. So i told my mom, and she told me that I shouldn't make up excuses just because I didn't want to run. And I cried because it was really painful to even stand on that leg. And my cousins were snickering and calling me a liar. I ended up not participating and holding all their bags for them. so now we got home and I rubbed something on my leg to maybe get the pain to go away. It still hurts but I can walk on it. And one of them just yelled at me and called me the most bitchy liar ever. She even kicked my leg to prove a point. It hurt like hell so i hobbled back to my room. And they're banging on the door and saying that my lie wasn't working and i should stop. I'm scared and I'm trying to stop crying. I don't wanna see them. The blade i kept hidden under the bathroom sink is calling me again and i just don't know what to do next.

what matters is your opinion!:) Dont need to give a fuck about them! They sound crazy anyway :) Dont cut, you're strong enough not to do that! If you tried talking and it doesnt work , try waiting it out! Anyway, remember that i believe you ^^

woahwoahwoah now, your family seems to not be like the most fun to be around right now. is there any way for you to get out of the house and...maybe not walk but to sit and think it out for a little bit?

First off, don't think that just because some people don't have food means your problems don't matter, because that's ridiculous. By that logic, there can only be one person (the person with the most poverty in the world) who is allowed to be upset, and that's bull shit if you ask me.
Now, I saw this very interesting idea earlier that I think is perfect for this situation. It works like this, everytime you feel the need to cut, draw a little butterfly on your arm. Name it after someone you care about, or someone who cares about you. You have to let the butterfly fade naturally, and NO cutting. If you cut, it means the butterfly died. If you have multiple butterflies and you only cut once, all of them still die. But if the butterflies fade naturally, they survive! So just make yourself some beautiful art on yourself, and let the butterflies live, screw your cousins ^w^ Good luck!