I just don't know what is wrong with me. I feel like I have a good life but I am not too sure. I always wanted to be useful to other people. Sometimes I feel like I ended up being taken for granted.
I see people interacting with one another and I feel kinda envious. Don't make a mistake, I am very friendly but sometimes I feel like I want to depend on someone else.

People always ask me for help, I have to take care of other feelings, I have to be responsible. Sometimes I want to break down but I can't. People thinks I have everything going on okay but sometimes I feel like I am too broken inside and I don't know if I can tell anyone or if I am even allowed to show how weak I am...

i feel empty.

Sometimes the best friend you will find is yourself. Realise that humans are selfish at heart, accept and embrace it, and learn to forgive and forget the people you're envious of. You can't carry on letting things like this drag you down because you have more to aspire to, you shouldn't be dependent on other people because they'd only end up letting you down. Dependable people don't come around that often, which is why you should learn that the most dependable person in this world is yourself. Find something you love, if you don't know already, and aspire to learn more about it, become more adept in that set of skills even make it your profession if you want to. Go on an adventure but know that people are temporary, the only permanent happiness you will find is within yourself. Become happy within before you start to look for happiness outside.

Much like >>2 said, the only person you should ever fully depend on is yourself. You're the only person you have for sure so you have to make sure you can rely on yourself. With that said, however, there is nothing wrong with leaning on other people now and then. It sounds a lot like you want to get closer with people, but that you're also terrified of doing it. If you want to break down or show weakness, just do it. Find someone you can trust whether that's a friend, a family member, a counselor, or even someone on here and just vent that weakness. It'll make you seem a lot more human than if you're always trying to appear strong and dependable; even the strongest people have bad days. So definitely find your own strength and always trust that, but if you ever waver just remember that there are plenty of other strong people that can help prop you back up.

>>1 I've had much of an experience before. It was quite... hard for me. I wanted to get closer to people, but I was too scared. I suffered from my thoughts and opinions than problems coming from the outside world, which is a worse situation in other people's eyes. Like>>2 said, we are quite selfish, like how anyone like you or even myself, would be jealous of someone else for being or having a certain talent or something. It's pretty much natural. I still kind of think that I want to disappear, but it won't happen again, if I ever do disappear. That's why I've started to expect more things than less when I learned that I could do so much more in this world.

Though I'm not suggesting you to become like me. For myself, I've been a bit lonely for about 4 years. I kept myself away from other people, didn't trust them, and stayed away. I've actually gotten quite used to it, and it really isn't bad, to be honest. It might just be the things I love or feel very passionate about, which is generally just story making. I love to create stories and fully dedicate myself into a large worth of research, developing setting, characters, etc. It sounds pretty bad, but that's the one thing I care about, about what I like. I'm a bit confident in what I want to do, and I've also figured that I should try to discover myself through a 2 year community college rather than a 4 year college. There's a lot of time, just don't waste it too much. Try to make some new friends or acquaintances, who would support you. Maybe they'll even try to come over to you, and see that you have a common interest. Have at least a little confidence, and that confidence will definitely carry on one day. ^^ It will definitely take you some place where you can be happy.

Heyy~
I think I understand your feelings. What they said above are all true, humans are selfish and greedy creatures in heart, but I'm not saying that all of them are bad~
It's just that they can be QUITE annoying at a certain times.

Finding a person to depend for is a hard task, so rather than depending on someone you should depend on yourself. People these days are hard to trust