i feel like i have no sympathy for others, like my mind is numb towards other people, i usually act like i'm feeling something when i'm with friends, but it feels superficial. it's really hard to bug me unless i'm acting like how i want to, completely ignoring other people... so it looks like i'm spacing out half the time. the other half i can't stop laughing... i dont know why, even if something isn't funny. when my grandpa had a heart attack, and my parents came in to tell me his condition, it took all i had not to laugh, i said i had to go to the bathroom in order to calm down. the only thing that will cause my emotions to really work is fiction, nothing in real life will make me cry, or jump with joy... so yeah, i think there's something wrong...

Yeah, I am the same way too..It's even worse, this is how I feel towards my family, my own blood. I feel as if I'm only obligated because they are my family. I honestly don't care about the saying blood is thicker than water. The reality is..I just can't seem to care. I've tried find ways to spend time with them but I just don't give a shit about them. There's something wrong with me isn't it? I care more about the Dollars than I do family, I care more about my fiancee than I do family. I don't want to be this way either, but I can't help it. I'm being honest with myself and it drives my older parents insane. They didn't abuse( I didn't count it as abuse) my sister loves me, my family loves me, I just can't seem to love them back. I feel guilty about it. But I keep trying.

But if I want to be honest, I feel that the Dollars are more like family.I feel so fucking silly about it, and the truth is, it's fucking sad to feel that way.

But to answer your question. You probably haven't found the right set of people that fit with you yet. Take care of yourself ok Loke? People like us, it's hard to find but we eventually do.

There's a chance that it's something biological. You should probably pop by a doctor and talk to him about it, and get any tests done you need to. It's better to rule that stuff out as early as possible, before it comes around to ruin your life.

But there's a better chance that it's hormones and/or life being shitty. So remember, if you're still in high school, hormones are gonna make your life a living hell for a while, and you probably shouldn't worry about it too much unless it gets scary (you want to hurt someone, or yourself). If it's life, then there's probably some damage there, like memories or experiences that you can't quite recall that have a lot to do with why you feel that way. And it's okay. You shouldn't force yourself to care about anyone you really don't. It's better to be just who you are.

And if you need someone to talk to, well, we're always around. <3

Don't give a crap about it. You think other people don't have these issues? Most people do. You're just another statistic, but you're the only one who is complaining about it online. The media and the internet tells you to be sensitive, and to give a fuck about other people, etc, but honestly that's just perpetuated sjw bullshit.
It's not an issue, and you need to sack up and accept that part of yourself.

You know how wrong it is to not family that took care and love you? Don't you think that's fucked up? There's something wrong with that whether it's a part of me or not. Everyone is a statistic sure, but for fuck's sake even you know that there is somwthing wrong with it.It isn't normal at all. Like Kuronue said, it might be something biological. You can't always measure people by statistics whatsoever. You can't keep telling people they aren't worth a an because everyone affects everyone even for a split second.

You know if you live in a safe neighborhood then all of a sudden someone snaps, and that one person causes a chain of events that lead to it being a dangerous neighborhood. All it takes for an event to turn around is one person. You need to know when to use statistics and when not too. Don't encourage behavior that simply isn't true for everyone. Other people have these issue and won't even have the fucking courage it takes to admit there is something wrong or be honest about it completely.

LOL i don't care

>>5 Let me just summarize the point that you are trying to make:
"Unless everyone cares for each other like we're told to, we'll become psychos!"
I don't understand the first part of your bullshit because your 'Engrish' is so bad.

>>6 if you don't care then why did you even comment? no one made you, just scroll down to other posts and don't waste your time, that sounds nice doesn't it?

YoloLord, it sounds like you've had a not-good life, and I'm so sorry about that. But I can promise that they aren't "the only people complaining about it on the internet". In fact, this board was sorta made for this kind of purpose. So don't spread shit like that, mkay?

It also sounds like everyone on this thread needs a damn hug. So here, *hugs* if you want it. And if you guys need anything else, feel free to say so. <3

I can explain the first part as to why my "Engrish" is so terrible. I've been using my phone to write my posts since I joined the Dollars and have just recently retrieved my laptop from the repair shop.

I'm calling you out on you stating that everyone is just a statistic. You just sound so cynical and bitter. Did something Loke and I stated resonated with you to say such a thing? I don't want to make enemies to anyone that is a member of the Dollars but I will call bullshit on something that simply isn't always true.

I never stated,"Unless everyone cares for each other like we're told to, we'll become psychos!"

And does society really dictate people to care for each other? In reality, no. One of the major reasons why our society is starting to decay is we are starting to become more inhumane,uncaring,and selfish.Just the fact that you stated that you consider people a statistic is worrying enough. Also it's not that I don't think other people have these "issues", I'm aware other people do. Don't I have the right to express it here on the personal thread at all or ask help when I'm at lost and relate to Loke about their experience?

I was prepared for people not to care, don't you know how sad that thought is? Knowing that no one gives a shit about what you say? But that isn't all true, there are kind people out there and here in the Dollars that would try to help and understand and I know that. That's why we address our situation here..in the Personal thread with the Dollars.

>>10 Well you did, you said that all it takes is one bad apple to not give a fuck and an entire community will collapse. I also said, if you'd actually read, that the guy complaining is just a part of a large number of people with similar issues struggling to accept the fact that they are not as sensitive as they are told that they should be. I have given my two cents to this guy's problem by replying to his post where you lot have been telling this guy that he is mentally ill for not giving a shit about other people. Just because my advice isn't just reciting some bullshit you'd read about on the internet about caring and loving doesn't make me a cold motherfucker who could stab someone in cold blood without batting an eyelid. How in God's name does anything I said sound bitter or cynical? It's the truth. You think anyone outside of this board gives a damn about this guy's problems (save for relatives and friends)? No! We're here giving this guy advice and mine differs from yours so you've gotten up on your high fucking horse telling him to give a shit when he doesn't need to because all he needs to do is accept the fact that that it is a part of him.

"One of the major reasons why our society is starting to decay is we are starting to become more inhumane,uncaring,and selfish." Oh yeah? Got anything to back that shit up other than your personal experiences? There is no place for unnecessary kindness in society outside of superficial shit. Nothing in life is free, including caring. Do you understand altruism? 'Giving' people things? Everything is a trade.

>>9 While I appreciate the sentiment, you don't know shit about me. Just because I don't feel like someone is not obligated to give a crap about other people does not mean that I've had a bad life.

We just have different views and that settles it. Whether he takes either of our advice or not we won't know till Loke replies to the posts.Honestly, that's the beauty of the Dollars and the world in general.I'm glad to have met someone even here that has a different outlook on life whether I agree or disagree with it. And by the way we don't know much about if it's their situation or how long they've felt this way or even their own gender. Will they be happy once they accept it's a part if them? Then by all means thats good for them. But it seems that they themselves don't know and had to resort to coming here asking for advice. If they need to ask then we can assume that they aren't happy with the way they are. I mean, they stated that they get emotionally affected by only fiction. Again, I didn't state that they were mentally ill. =( I'm saying that he thinks there is something wrong about it and you're telling him to accept it is good. But the way you said he is just a statistic was what made it sound cynical. I'm just sayimg it sounds that way even if you yourself don't mean it that way. Hopefully, they are able to make a decision for themselves because only they know what would make them happy. Thank you for reading and hopefully that cleared that misunderstanding.

>>12 <3

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um... i'm a girl... just sayin... i'm glad u guys made up though. oh, the only reason i asked u guys this question is because whenever i try to talk to my parents about this kind of stuff, they just ignore me and say "it's just a phase" i know that it's a part of me and i'm wondering if there really is something strange about my brain,or if my parents selfish delusions are correct and i'm perfectly normal... so yeah, thx.

No problem Loke! =)

>>1
I totally get what you mean. I fell the same way. I don't think it means there's anything wrong or that you have no sympathy. It probably just means you look at the world more analytically and less emotionally. Also, for the grandpa example, that may have been completely unrelated to the situation. That's happened to me before where I just start laughing for no apparent reason and so I automatically link it to the most recent event.
Whether or not your "normal" depends on how you define that. Everyone has a different view on the world so everyone's different. So maybe you do count as normal. You're not average though. And that's awesome.

>>14 Thing is, it could just be a phase. Most people go through a time in their life where they feel like everything is superficial. For me, I went through a period like that when I was 14. You need to be cautious that you are not getting this mistaken with a mental illness. You know what I do? I just smile. No matter what's going on or how tired I am from shit the day before, I literally just smile all day and I feel better. Maybe it will work for you too, or maybe this is just a part of you. I disagreed with Reneo before, but we both suggested sound advice that you could easily apply.
Another perspective you could take on the issue is if you really are emotionally cold or whatever, then you can do things that others can't. There will always need to be a soldier, a general who can give a logical order without letting their emotions interfere with their decision and there will always be politicians who need to live with the fact that their new policy will leave people out on the streets for the benefit of the greater good.