I've been dealing with this depression of mine for a long time now.
I think it has been going on about 3 years.

Things I've done wrong haunts me.
The most haunting moments was when I kissed my cousin, even though it occurred at a time where I didn't have so much knowledge about morals and ethics. That time where I told my father something disturbing, something that I should have kept a secret.

Those are the most critical ones. I've been figuring of going to cognitive therapy sessions, but I thought that I'd consult you guys first (since I've noticed many of you have been/are depressed and had thoughts about suicide).

I hope I ,at least, get some answers to this thread.

well i think your life is better than mine everyone hates me ,i dont have any friends everyone is using me as an instrument for their reputation everyone and my life is so boring ,nobody seems me or cares for me but i still have hope i will find someone

I can... relate.
I get constant shit daily. People using me to get higher grades, to protect themselves and so on. School life has been ruff on me.
Once I was so badly bullied, I had to visit a doctor.

same here ...i want to kill all of them (╬⓪益⓪)

my "best friend" is an big asshole the bigest of all and she has a big ego and i dont know i cant even describe it (´Д｀。)

to spirit cat: is it maybe Izaya your best friend? x)

Had this one guy in my class that always used to twist my nipples and punch me.

We got on good terms eventually. He has actually defended me a few times now.

Point is: Better times awaits.

yeah i don't want to go anywhere,hate school so hard, that one in my class is a lesbian who looks like an boy o(-`д´- o)

at last here is fun(*ノ・ω・）

At least your class isn't filled with plain fucks.
You guys got a lesbian tom-boy, one more lesbian tomboy than my class have.

they aren't just one they are the hole school is fucked up with nasty people this is why i hate people i hate to be around them idiotic people and well im scared from people

Ah, anti-social. Ever thought of transferring?

it can't be helped

Dude dont beat yourself up. Making mistakes is a part of human nature. Take that therapy. I couldnt and depression still haunts me. And kissing your cousin is not a big deal. In my religion you can marry your cousin.

Alright, ignore these scrubs that have posted suggestions before me. Unless you are literally locking yourself in your room, cutting yourself, etc, you do not have depression. You must learn to distinguish between yearning, sadness and loss and depression. Depression is a powerful thing. Whatever experiences you are having, it is only temporary in life, and you will feel better, and you do not have a powerful mental illness.

>>14 Straight up tell it to them, is "gentle done" a word in ye book?

>>14

Well, if it has been going on 3 years, constantly, I've been locking myself in my room at times, been having serious talks with my close friend, had thoughts of suicide (though, I've never seriously been planing it, since, let's say, hope kept me running) I'd say that it's depression.

>>16 That is horrible. If that is the case, then you might actually have a mental illness. Even if you don't, if the thought of suicide has crossed your mind frequently then you need to see someone. Best of luck.