I want to kill myself... and i dont even have a reason why anymore... there has to be a reason... i just cant find it... right...?

there is you just have to wait to find it I know it sucks but there is something or someone that you have no clue about and whatever it is it's waiting for you.

Exactly.
Izaya san there are many things beautiful and pure and worth living. You should look for them instead of thinking how or why to kill yourself. Life's beautiful by itself and you should live.
Of course it's your decision if you'll listen to me, but there sure are people that love you and care for you and at least for them you should stay alive
And you know... There's this song called "Always look for the bright side of life"... Let it be your guide :)

Today, people live unfulfilling lives. It is beacause people don't do what they want to do. If you do know what to then coat yourself with resolve and go for it. If not, that means you are scared. People in general are not prone to be happy with the process of achieving something. For example, if a person wants to get an A in something they're not good at like maths they will not sit on their chair for three days analyzing schoolwork but ask for people to help, take on extra tuition etc. But nobody can implant the knowledge inside of you better that yourself. Asking for help shortens the process and is uavoidable at times but if you don't analyze everything yourself, nothing will save you. But it's beacause we are all raised like that lately. What I mean by scared is you're scared to try to analyze it beacause you think you will fail. You just want to wake up and get an A. But we all want something, from helping poor people, to helping ourselves. You don't need to know the big idea right away. Sometimes you first have to fulfill your wish of eating a cheeseburger and then gradually realise what you want to become. Enjoy the relathionships, the food, there are many pleasures in the world and try not to rush things :)

Let me ask you the reverse. How is it that you can give up so easily? [exaggerated sigh] I can’t understand that…attitude! “It’s bad luck! I have no choice!” People who passively accept their fate…because no one knows their future, least of all me, so I don’t dare put things off. I have to do what I can, while I can still do it, so…I’ll be kicking and screaming, ’til the very end. this is how i feel every day as people tear me down

That's because there can't be a valid reason to commit suicide. If your heart is telling you to kill yourself but your mind is holding you back, it means that you've already won half the fight.

you already made this far and haven't killed yourself. there was something holding you back so use that to continue. you'll live to see if things get better and how the world turns out as it ages.

Please, please don't kill yourself! I know things may seem bad now, and it may be cheesy of me to say this...but things will get better, I promise you! I know life is tough and sometimes you just don't see the point anymore... but keep at it! Don't give up!! There are people who care about you, who would be devastated if you were gone. It's going to be OK. I believe in you =)
(My e-mail is kanran164@gmail.com if you want to talk)

Don't kill yourself without a reason. The people around you that love and care about you will be devastated. And it'll be your fault. You don't want to carry that burden with you to your afterlife, right? So live. I've been through hard things and I'm still trying to push forward. The road may be dark and bumpy but there will always be light. :)

Suicide does not solve anything.
It never solve any problem.
When you have any problem, what you should do is - FIX IT.
No matter how big your problem is, FIX IT.
To fix it, you need to FACE IT.

Your life is your choice.
You are happy because you choose to be happy,
and you are miserable because you choose to live that way.

Suicide is just running away.
That makes you even worse than animal (sorry, I need to state this) because if you see, animals also have their own hard time & problems, but they never kill theirselves.
They don't have the ability to think rationally like human, but human have that.

When you are dead, people will slowly forget about you,
yet the problem is still there, never fixed.
I don't know who you are, but I don't want you to lost more.
Maybe you have lost a lot of thing, but if you are dead, you lost even more. :')

>>1 Life is beautiful and it definitely can be nasty sometimes but that doesn't mean you have to end it. I guarantee, somethings waiting out there for you and is just waiting for you to find it, killing yourself won't change or solve anything! your just running away. Advice from me, think of life as a new challenge take it on and just enjoy yourself, don't think about the people who judge, it your life not theirs. I hope you will erase this "idea" from your mind and look at Life's bright side.

:) P.S The world isn't as bad as you think