>>1 I'm pretty sure you don't love your GF as much as you think you do. If you truly did love her you wouldn't be so worked up about this guy you claim to like so much. Honestly most of what you said sounds like you're trying to convince yourself that you do love this girl and you like this guy. You're afraid of him knowing you're some otaku which in reality isn't even that big of a deal so you're insecure about yourself obviously. Honestly I don't like you not because you're some otaku but because you're pathetic like really. I don't even think you have a healthy relationship with your GF because apparently she's completely fine with you leaving her. That makes me think that she wants you to break up with her just so she doesn't hurt your feelings. If you'd like some advice here's mine, stop being insecure, stop lying to yourself and just do it, if you stay afraid you'll amount to absolutely nothing in life. One last note; if you want to die then just die people like you should already be dead. Take my help however you want.