3 Name: Magnolia : 2015-01-28 00:55 ID:dtS2jR3d [Del]
I had a morbid curiosity moment and found a video where the news broadcast was unable to cut off the feed before a man who was...deranged pulled out his gun and shot himself.
I was surprised that this had ever happened, and my mother was in the same room, so she came over to see it. I think I was mainly focused on why people run from the cops and what this particular man was on because he got out of his car and kept running, and tripping, and looking back, as if a horde of demons were chasing after him.
After he stopped running and pulled out the gun and capped himself, I pointed out to my mother the differences in Hollywood and how it actually looks like. Usually in movies the force of the gun makes them immediately fall back, but here, he was actually standing for a couple of seconds, dropped to his knees, and then to his side.
At the end my mother said "So that's what it looked when my little brother did it..."
I completely fucking forgot...that before I was born, my Uncle, who suffered from clinical depression like the rest of my mom's family, held a bank hostage in hopes of dying suicide by cop. The cop with his gun on him, however, wouldn't shoot. He could tell my Uncle had no intention of killing anyone that day.
The poor traumatized cop described my mother's brother to be smiling at him before killing himself. Everyone of his "hostages" mentioned how he never hurt anyone and was walking around smiling, apologizing for the delay he was causing, asking people about their day, and promising that it would be over soon.
My mother would never have seen that video if it weren't for me. She knows what it looks like now. Bringing it up, analyzing it, pointing things out to her... I have never felt like DIRT.
I've never apologized so hard before. If it was a part of my culture, I would've put my head to the floor.
I was crying and saying I'm sorry over and over and she just kept saying it's okay, you've never met him so it just never occurred to you. In the end that's why the News is responsible for pulling things off the air, because you never know what scenes can trigger a person's memory. I didn't know that until then.
