Hi.~ ☆ I'm not sure what to do anymore. I'm not the greatest high school student in the world. I'm ADD so I have a quiet the hard time focusing. Anyways, I'm having issues turning in assignments and whatever. I tell myself I need to do it when I get home from school, but then I just lose interest and can't bring myself to do no matter how much I try. I have to take pills to focus. I've lost interest in everything we do at school. I don't participate, never hand in or do homework, I consistently lie and, well, deceive my teachers, saying things like I forgot to print the essay out or so on. Today I got in trouble with three of my teachers. Twice in front of my class and then another teacher made me start twenty minutes later on a test than the other students(I wasn't able to finish the test). Deceiving the teachers , my parents, and myself have become a terrible habit of mine. I promise myself I'll work on the assignment later, but then it's about 3/4 am in the morning and I'm too tired to work on it. I have been getting three hours of sleep everyday. I guess normally a person would have passed out by then, but those pills I mentioned earlier keep me focuses and awake so I couldn't fall asleep even if tried. I'm to scared to ask my parents for help or my doctor.(my doctor is my moms boss and good friend, so I'm afraid my doctor would tell my mom). I've slowly given up everything. I practically break everything I touch or talk too. I'm stressing about so much. If I went to my friends for help, they'd thing I'm weird(weirder :P) and I don't want to burden them. I'm really sick of everything. I haven't achieved anything in so long. I also find a lot of words meaningless now, for example, if someone, say my parents, said "I love you" to me, I just repeat what they said back to them, but without care. When I look at something it just seems all the same to me too. I'm not sure what to do now. I'm beginning to fear time. I'm constantly staring at a clock. I'm also constantly thinking about how short time really is and I guess I'm being paranoid.

I hope all this made sense. There is no way I'm revising what I just wrote. It's too long >_< well, if your able to make it through this, how do you think I can solve this problem? I'm seriously on the edge of breaking down. Thaaank yooou! :)

The best thing to do at this point is pray.

You're not alone. I'm experiencing the same thing too.

Look focusing problem is not small thing but its also not the end of the world. I'm having same problem to. But i found a way to avoid it. I don't hold myself back on anything anymore. Like go any person on your class and told them lets make homework together or ask their help. Talk with your parent's. You maybe become sensless against them but im sure they aree not you. But still if you want to talk someone you can always mail me. etugutlu4@hotmail.com . Just don't hold yourself back. Goodluck my fellow dollars member.

The best thing to do is to stay strong. They may say your weirder but eventually you'll end up finding a group of people who see you as literally the same as them. As for the teachers, I'v experienced physical bullying from my teachers when i was in middle school so just hang in there.Seriously it'll pass its not worth your trouble to fight back. If those "role models" want to act like kids, let them. It just makes you the adult. Also your parents could be tricky. They dont always try to or even want to understand. Maybe they won't. Just don't change to try to be what they want, I made that mistake and ended up hating myself for it. Just try to tell them how you feel every chance you get. Sorry if these aren't solutions you're looking for, they just seemed to work for me. Good luck, my friend!

This means a lot, thank you so much! What everyone said will help me. I'll try my best, though it'll take awhile. Hopefully this'll help anyone else who is like this as well. I have so much to overcome, but I'll remember what my Dollar friends said to me! I'd seriously would like to write more, but I need to put my phone away since I'm still at school. Thank you again, hope you have a good day/night? （≧∇≦）T^T☻