I kept running away and let the things end in whatever way while I am shuting myself in my room and just watching anime and reading manga to forget what have happened. It had happened to me many times, example when I have a fight with my grandfather friend and I know him too just because he misunderstood me (I can't tell you the details because he really didn't want me to speak that) on telling other people and spreading a rumor, I kept tell him that it is not me who did that but It doesn't seem that he was listening to me that's why he force me to get out on the place where we've talking and said "Get out of here, you always think to yourself high and you are always arrogant" that's what he said. A day has been pass when we pass each other we didn't have a contact it's like we have been completely stranger now, a few hours about that when he is drinking with his friends that include my grandfather, he picked a fight with his one friend, I don't know the details and what are they fighting for but I intend to stop them because my grandfather suddenly joined in I think "they are friend anyway that's why my grandfather joined in" that's what I thought and that is the reason why I want to stop them, but.. while Im watching them at the window of my room I can't move I am afraid to go there even if I want and then I froze in my room while looking at the window and the time have passed and then not too long my father have come home and then when I see him I feel relieve because someone is going to help to stop the fight now and my grandfather is not hurt as well but when I go inside my room I think that "why I didn't stop them while my mother and grandmother can't? why am I so afraid that because my grandfather friend and I have fight yesterday. Why am I running away again?". That's what I thought and that's when I thought again that why am I so powerless? even I am thinking what I should do while watching them but when I will go to stop them, I am afraid.

That's my story. Im thankful if you could understand me because in truth no one have understand me 'till now.
Please tell me what should I do, just giving me a little tip is fine by me, I just want you to help me anyway.

I would be lying if I said I understood you. But my advice? Know yourself, one way to do that is Meditating. In the end you are always in a competition with yourself. Know yourself and you will be able to know your next step as a person. Trust me on this one.

Though i don't know your whole situation, because that takes more than one memory to understand, i do know the feelings you are feeling all too well. i also ran. im no longer running, but i am hiding. but Ban isn't wrong. meditation is one of the possible first steps. getting to know yourself is key to solving this if you don't already know. i am someone who it is first nature to be thinking about who i am most, if not all the time. so i found someone. a friend. someone whose hands i knew i could place my heart in and they would keep it beating. he said to me "bravery and strength are not the absence of fear. foolishness and arrogance are. fear triggers our fight or flight response. it keeps us alive. bravery and strength are the ability to recognize your fear, then acknowlege it, and having it step aside so you can do what must be done." never lose fear, for its absence turns bravery into stupidity. overcome it, so that you know you have the strength to tackle what comes next. the fear is worse than what follows it. i write to give my fears form. i know someone who draws to give her fears form. they allow us to overcome our fear by giving it a face that we know. find a way to overcome your fear. then talk to those you fear for. tell them how you feel. do not yell, but hide nothing. wear your heart on your sleeve. meditate, or find someone you can trust with your life. and the next step becomes clear.

I've notice people are having worse and worse fight as of late. And then holding grudges longer, or so it seems. Is it because we as people allow our emotions and feelings to rule our actions and judgement? Probably.
I advice you that at times like this allow both sides to cool down and then try to talk it out. Don't let anger or fear rule your heart. Battle it with small steps of courage and level-headed-ness.
Everyone has flaws like me I'm quite prideful so as a self cure I humiliate myself so that I'm reminded that I am not better nor worse than anybody else around me. Stay strong.

You're pretty much asking for a hero to save you... but sorry to break it to you there are no heroes in this world. But if there is no heroes in this world be one your self.

I understand now thanks to your instructions, the moment I open this thread I am happy I don't know why but I thought it is because for the first time someone have been listening and emphasis myself, so I am thankful to all of you. I will get to know myself more and I will always listen to my heart from now on, so thank you everyone Im really happy.

Np. Only trying to help a fellow dollar.