I'm thinking of catching the bus. Not immediately but at some point in the future. My life and health are in decline and I may be loosing my disability. I have no family and can't work. Not sure why I am posting this but I'm not sure why I should bother keeping going.

please stay strong for as long as you can

How old are you? What do you mean by health decline? Where are you living if not with family? By catching the bus, do you mean you're going to just give up on life or actually commit suicide?

if you are thinking about suicide, its terribly selfish

Hey there greyghost. Do you have something you like, something you can share.
I'm not familiar with the concept of "disability". What does it mean to lose your disability ? (I'm from Switzerland)
Why can't you work ?

Fortunately for you, I think I might know why you took all the trouble to write something here. You are afraid. Not of dying, maybe, but you're afraid you will die without anyone noticing nor carring.

I knew someone, a friend of mine. 15 years old and in good health. One day, he hung himself in his cave. Nobody knows why he did it. Nobody even knew he didn't feel well.

What you did here today, is an act of courage from someone who doesn't want to die. The act of someone who has lost his way in life.

Although it looks like I'm being arrogant, I ain't. Just remember that you are a part of the Dollars familly and that we'll do our outmost not to let you down.
Best wishes from Switzerland.