Well... My depression isn't so bad right now but I can still kind of feel it lingering there right behind me...you know...? Lack of energy and enthusiasm, no drive to really do anything, very little emotion, a feeling of hopelessness....all that...

But my main concern is that I live out in the middle of nowhere basically (It's a very small town) and everyone already has their little groups up here and they don't seem to want to let me in either... I get relief at my school (which is in a larger town) but when I come back home I am just reminded of how lonely and secluded I am...

Any advice on how I could maybe help either situation...?

feel ya,

You can only survive through the pain and gain enough wisdom to stop caring about being alone or your past of being lonely.

It is quite a sad and long journey to achieve that goal but trust me, you can find it some how.

That's just things are, you will always do the same thing forever and only outside being will control how you change in yourself.

But you decide how you evolve in this world, the world isn't as bad as you think.

Just takes some breathers and reflect on your thoughts of things like your morals and beliefs, the people who are more interesting are those who keep to themselves and only express their outright need of their thoughts instead of their wants.

Thank you for replying to me...

I know what you mean and I've tried not to care but when that happens, I close up to everything else too... so it's either not alone and depressed or not depressed and alone...

It's kind of hard to know what to do right now really... I had another bad day at school today and I just feel so darn upset over small things right now and it's really weighing me down at the moment...

And I know it's not as bad as I see it to be but sometimes my low self esteem and confidence will make it seem worse because I feel so insignificant to everyone else...

Low self esteem is something I learned to live with, simply by thinking that everyone has their faults and they only seem so great because I do not know them that well.
As for depression, I still suffer from it, but thinking about the future keeps me going. Imagining how things might work out when moving into the big cities, making new friends, sharing all kinds of experiences, maybe even finding one's better half. I pretty much leave my life up to fate,trying to work towards a better future while waiting for it to arrive.
So the only advice I can give you: Everyone has their flaws, some might hate them, some acknowledge and some even learn to love them. The present right now (school life) may be depressing, but you can always look forward to the future, everything might turn out fine. As for now, you should not worry too much, try to make the best out of the situation, it is not for eternity. And who knows, if you keep trying to make the best out of everything, maybe you can even make a nice experience out of your youth, if that fails, it will just be a little scar on your future self, and we all carry some of those.