I have a major problem with school and I'd like to hear some advice.
I am now a 12th grader (in my country we finish high school a year later so I still have to become a 13th grader before ending everything) but I only understood last year that I've chosen a school (Languages School) that is not suitable for me. I'm not good enough at languages and starting from the last year my grades kept getting lower and lower. This year I might also risk to fail Maths and Physics. I sort of like my classmates but I can't work well with these teachers (that I can't change) and with the system. I feel oppressively judged every single day, I feel too much competition and I don't enjoy studying and learning as I did before. I can't change professors, and right now I can't even change kind of school since I'd have to study the different programs of the 4 years that I've already spent in this actual school to pass the exam. It would be a weight too heavy to sustain.
I was thinking: can someone explain me how homeschooling exactly works? I know it is legal in my country but it's not as common as in the Anglosaxons ones. Does it work well even if I'm not a little kid anymore? Can it be a valid solution to overcome the lack of self-esteem and eccessive anxiety that school caused me? Is it going to be expensive since my parents can't actually be my tutors since they work all day and don't have the specific knowledge to teach me the high schools' programme?
I have to consider that my parents don't know anything about homeschooling, neither its existence, and that the schoolyear has begun since 4 months... I'm also scared to losing contact with my few classmates, as I also have a problem maintaining friendships and I don't have right now any solid friendship. I wouldn't have to deal with extreme isolation since i already suffer a lot for it and also my parents would be scared by that prospect...but my actual situation in school is atrocious and I don't want to sacrifice my mental sanity and happiness furthermore. What should I do?

Hello. Just wondering, if you're okay with sharing- what country are you in? Germany, maybe? I'm sorry to hear about your situation.... It must be tough to deal with. If you're looking into homeschooling, I encourage it. I've been home schooled for a few years, and I honestly wasn't too fond of the experience. Because of my homeschooling in the past, I'm now very anxious in social situations and stuff. Also, homeschooling can damage your learning, in my opinion. For example, after I dropped out of school and began school at home, I got straight A's in everything- except maths. Maths weren't really explained in a way that I understood, and I couldn't ask any teachers for help, so I still struggle in math today. Also, it's tempted to skip work when you're home schooled. Try to stay motivated if you do become home schooled.
For your situation, I would definitely consider being schooled at home for your last year. Especially if your current school doesn't engage you or anything. Homeschool is customized, so you'll be able to do stuff more your way.
Sorry if this post makes little sense. I wish you luck.

>>2 I live in Italy...

>>1 I'm a home schooled person and have been one for 4 years. If your doing okay at school DON'T start home schooling (distance education). However it isn't as bad as it seems. If you've got any emotional problems then you're able to enter distance ed along with other valid problems. However the competition will still remain and it might be even harder to compete. Nonetheless you will grow in your own way and looking back at my time in homeschooling, I am pretty proud of my growth. You will take education into your own hands and will learn to be responsible and open minded.

But here comes the hard part. YOU will need to take charge of things.
- Stay in contact with your teacher
- Organise your time table
- Organise how to do your tests and projects
- Organise a way to send your work
- Organise back up plans if you can't post or your internet fails you.
- AND ALWAYS STAYING MOTIVATED

Since this is your last few years of schooling, if you think you can do it then do it. I had friends who started distance ed/homeschooling when in their last year and they did well.

There's the stereotype people make that say when you start homeschooling you become socially awkward and isolated. But it's up to you to keep contact with your old friends and up to you to make new ones.

And if your parents don't know the first thing about this then don't worry, most of it will be up to you and all they have to do is see how you're going with work and if you're not lagging behind. I'm not sure how it is in Italy but this how things are in Australia.