I have been having this battle with feelings of inferiority as well as doubt and weakness. i grew up in an enviorment where i was constantly told i was weak and couldn't amount to anything by my peers as well as my father. After a while my emotions went blank and i felt a void of emptiness that couldn't be filled.
I became cold hearted to everything concerning this world.
Eventually i hid my real emotions with a mask and hungout around people out of curiosity as wells as a yearning for something exciting to happen. i feel for this girl that i have known since we were in grade school and i felt something begin to change about my views. I have been interested in girls before then but it wasn't emotionally. We ended up talking for months and going on dates until she decided to choose some asshole over me and lie and Tell my classmates i was obsessed with her and she never liked me. I once again felt this hole inside my heart and i drowned in my sorrows once again. Months passed and i had a class in the summer where i met this wonderful girl that possible had a interest in me. I wanted to talk to her but since the last girl i begin to wear my emotions on my sleeve and so i couldn't do it. I couldn't be the cold and confident guy that i was before everything. I feel like i lost part of myself to that girl and i want to go back to being myself. I would like you guys to help me sort this out in order to become whole again.

you are you, you can't change that. nobody can. you are still you. time cures all, just wait and you will be rewarded.