okay so just a while ago i was crying. I guess it was because a ton of a lot of things that I remembered about myself. And one of these thoughts just kept going through my mind: you see, there is a person in my life who I have spent my whole life with and we have had our happy moments but also our very very not happy moments. My feelings are mixed because I am terrified of this person, i love this person (not romantically), and hate this person. And the reason I can't tell anyone is because I don't want to ruin this persons reputation, have someone change him,have him hurt me, or us just being awkward for the rest of our lives. And at the same time i hate how arrogant and not thoughtful and rude he is to me. I can trust him keep a secret and fear he will use it against me to make fun of me, but he's the only one i can actually talk to. And then I am terrified that he will hate me more than he does now. He was the only one I looked up to, and I strived to make him proud. And I cant tell anybody this because again I love him to much, and it makes me want to cry.

So, you want to tell this person something, but you are not sure whether you can trust them and you feel like they are the only person you can talk to? Is that right?

I don't know what you want to tell him, but, if he hasn't broken your trust before, I'd say to tell him and give him a chance to be trustworthy. If that doesn't work out, you'll be able to learn from that. Its just that if you don't give him a chance, you'll never know.

If he has broken your trust before, I'd say to try and find someone else to talk to. They don't need to give advice, they just need listen. Either look to people in your life, or try and find someone online and give trusting them a chance, anonymity has its advantages sometimes.

I'd give the second one a chance anyway, if you are anything like me you just really need someone to talk to! I hope this helps somehow.

this is not a healthy friendship