Hey, so I was thinking of quitting the dollars since I haven't thought of being a dollar in a long time.

I felt as if I was a living robot doing things because other people told me to. I didn't find them to be corrupt or bad people, nor did they force me to change for them.

Feeling alone is hard but knowing you are alone even though you can make friends is harder. When your in a school, there are many people around you would like to make friends with but seeing as they already have friends, we don't feel we need to crowd them.

Even with family members around I still felt alone, it made me feel guilt that wasn't enjoying the company of family sometimes even though I know later on we won't have this precious time together.

I've dependent on family and now since one of the biggest lifeline to friendship in my life is off to college, I feel I am free but I'm working off of nothing. I always did what she wanted and tried to help her as best as I can even though there are times I cannot seem to reason her views.

I have procrastinating on life in general hoping to make other people proud of me and I will be a decent human. But I just to start again.

I want to feel that fire in me when I was younger to be more stronger and wiser and to adventure the unknown. Make a fool out of myself and make friends along the way and be rock for someone to lead on while keeping my cool.

That's way I wanted to stay in the dollars. Even though I can't see you, your guy's presence that someone is there to watch over me is more than enough.

Knowing no matter how long I been trying to sort things out, you guys will always be there.

I hope one day that I can also be a mentor and find peace with some adventure.

Judging by your post, I can tell your a strong person. Hopefully you will find friends,
but remember the Dollars are always here.
Maybe you can't enjoy family moments and stuff but to be honest everyone's different and find different things enjoyable.
So don't worry the Dollars are always here to help. And maybe you'll help other people out as well.
Stay strong and keep smiling ^.^