>>12 Augh, lucky. I needed 32.
>>14 Well, at least your day wasn't boring? It sounds to me like you have a lot going on. I would not converse with a male that needed to know that much about my personal life... But I would also refrain from making him upset. You shouldn't have to pretend to be a lesbian, just tell him to get lost. It really isn't his concern. Meditating seems cool if you have the attention span for it, does it really work?
So, I have something to share and, honestly, it is okay to just ignore this. I need to get it off my chest.
My hands have been hurting really bad on and off for the last two years. It has gotten to the point where it is hard to work with them. I try babying them until the pain goes away, and that usually works, but this time it is so much worse. I went to the doctor and he told me that my hands were just TIRED. I pointed out that I hadn't been working when the pain started and he still told me that my hands were only tired. Well, pain that used to come around for MAYBE three days has now been with me for about a week. Typing is NOT very painful. I mean, moving the wrong way is, but not typing. But the scary thing for me is knowing that if this is something serious, and how can it not be given the extreme pain and similarities to tendinitis, I could lose the ability to use the affected fingers. I am so very scared of not being about to draw anymore. Drawing is the only thing I have ever felt truly proud of myself for. I went to an art school solely based on my dream of becoming a successful visual artist and that could all be taken away from me if not by the excruciating pain then by the after math of a poorly taken care of (condition?) You can take away my voice, or the internet, or every possession in this room right now. But I would be totally lost and alone without my ability to draw.
For anyone who took the time to read that, thank you. I just had to get it out there for...some reason or another.
