Actually my mom is a nice person,she love me pretty much......But she always angry to me at outside(like very crowded palace...)she shouted at me and so many people stop and see what happen...That thing can make me wanna die...I was idioctonia when I was 13 cause those happening..,then she promised to me that she'll never to this again,But she does not do what she said to me anytime...Well,I really don't want talk to her anymore...

First what do you mean by 'wanna go' ? I'm seriously hoping that it's not what i think it is, but by what you said, making you want to die, i think it is. Listen, parents go through stuff too. I know how you feel. I've dealt with the same. But you're getting too down on yourself. No it's not right for your mom to be this way towards you, but you're going to extreme here. Talk to her and try to be calm and civil. Don't point fingers and blame, talk with her, not at her. If she doesn't respond positively, then leave her alone and try again. That's all i can offer.