Recently I've discovered that one of my friends committed suicide. I had meant to message them who knows how long ago but I didn't, and now it's been a week and I have. But I didn't realize I was a week too late. So I just need to get something off my chest, I suppose.
I could've talked to you. I know it isn't my fault that you're gone, and I know I couldn't have stopped you if it was really what you wanted, which it seems to have been so. But I could've talked to you and tried to help you anyway. God, I could've been there for you. I feel like I abandoned you and it hurts so bad. I didn't know you well enough to know everything that was going on in your life. I wish I had. I miss you. I want to fix this. You can't be gone. I pray to the gods I don't believe in that this is all just a big misunderstanding and that you're all right.
I'm sorry.

R.I.P