I feel like my life is slowly falling apart. I'm being torn apart by the people around me whether, the're my friends or family. I'm being bullied and I know that most people are, but I have a history of depression. But the worst thing is that the girl whom I loved but now we're friends, is moving away and not going to the same school.

How I'm being torn apart by people who're my friends is that I don't have anything in common with them at all. They try to get me to like the things they like, but I just don't like the things they like. They get angry at me for telling them things I don't like physically, like them leaning against me,hugging me, pushing me, and any other physical contact. We're becoming distant and I'm sad that I'm losing them. How I'm being torn apart by my family is that at one point I had my two older sisters living with me. They always had people coming over, and having parties. My sisters had a friend with a baby and she went to smoke in my parents room with my step-dad. Apparently he tried to kiss her or he said something that made her very uncomfortable. The next day she had her parents come and get her, and two days later she told my sisters over a text message. My sisters told my mom who started to cry. My sisters started yelling at my mother telling her "We need to leave mom! We need to leave!" My mother started crying and agreeing. At this point I packed my clothing in my backpack. My mother started to question them as to exactly what the girl had said to them. She thought about it and started to defend her husband. My sisters started screaming at her to leave, She started to get angry and told them "Get out. Pack your shit and leave. I'm not letting a 16 year old ruin my life and marriage!" And so they did, They packed up and left, and haven't come back for about a month.

I, a 13 year old girl with a history of depression, am being bullied. Today I got told I was low, a bitch, and that I was disrespectful. I am being told this by a girl who hates me for nothing. SHE is the one who talks during class when the teacher is, SHE is the one who calls my friends lesbians because they don't really have any guy friends, and SHE is the one who doesn't know the impact her words have on others. I am the one who stays quiet, I am the one who doesn't talk about ANYONE badly, I am the one who chooses my words carefully as to not hurt those around me. But I guess I'm just a low disrespectful bitch aren't I?

Once upon a time I made a friend, an actual friend with whom I had many things in common with, and I even loved her family. But little did I know along the path of friendship, she had developed feelings for me. She messaged me on Facebook and told me of these feelings. Earlier in our friendship I had thought about loving her, I had thought about being her girlfriend and how much she would love me, but these thoughts lasted no more than a second, just a flash and gone. After I saw her at school again we started to date under the cover of super-best-friends. She told only our closest friends of our relationship, who didn't judge us. On the very last day of school, at the school dance, she kissed me during a slow dance. She had stolen my first kiss, the girl whom I had no physical feelings for kissed me. I loved it. After school I went to her house and spent the night. After so long of loving her I, for some reason started to hate the feeling of her lips against mine, I hated it when she hugged me. At he middle-end of summer we broke up. She has remained my absolute best friend since then. But a week ago we learned that she's moving, not just to another house in the area, but to a different town all together. I'm being torn apart by this. I don't want her to go. I can't survive in this school without her there to keep me company. The school will eat me alive.

So that's my tragic story of woe. I'm 100% sure that some one out there has it worse. I'm not trying to whine about my life, I just thought sharing it would make me feel better, and it has. I would very much appreciate it if you would leave any advice you have for me. Thank you so much for reading
~Anima.

sad story...

I'm sorry. I know it must be tough, but you'll be able to make it. I'm sure you must be a very strong person to be able to endure so much, but i'm sure you feel like total shit right about now, but please, hang in there. I know the words of a total stranger probably don't mean much, but you have my support, and i'm sure the support of the rest of the Dollars as well. We are like a family here. Stay strong, power through and always make the best of it. I believe in you.

"The world isn't as bad as you think."
-Celty Sturluson

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Excuse my bad grammar. I wrote this @ 2am. ^-^;

Thank you so much Kai. Even if they are the words of a stranger they encourage me to keep going and to get through it. I guess I just needed to get it all out of my system after holding it in for so long... Words cannot express how grateful I am. Thank you.
~Anima

Ah, there isn't much I can say, but as Kai said, be strong.

Hold it together, you'll eventually get passed this. Losing a friend is very hard, but look at the bright side, they're still alive and somewhere in this world where you can one day meet them again. I've lost many friends in the past to a similar situation, except I was the one who moved. I moved twice, when I was 12, to a foreign country (for 6 years, no going back), and then when I was 18, back to my homeland. Both times I pretty much lost contact with all of my friends and had to live alone for some years, but I know if I ever go back there will always be people waiting for me.

You probably feel like you're in a desperate situation because you became very attached to this friend of yours, and probably depended on her as well, which is not a bad thing at all. However now you're in a situation where you're going to have to be independent and get through some problems alone, at least until you find some other good friends. And please, don't seek a lonely life, it's harsh and dry.

Be strong. Teenage years are tough, but there is still a lot of things ahead of you, hope is not lost as your life is only starting to unfold.

I hope these words at least helped a little; I'll (and we'll) be here for you if you need anything more, so please don't hesitate to ask for any help.

God bless.