hi... need a couple of info from other people's perspective...

so to put it simply,

>I have a good family (asian) in term of financial. enough money for vacation overseas, eat good food and keep changing car/mobile phone/etc
>living in asian country, where everything is cheap (for us)
>dad is a wealthy businessman...have own factory
>mom supporting dad... a bitch mom in my opinion
>older bro, taking up major position in my dad's company... can speak 3 language, smart, keep skipping grade, graduate overseas college, etc
>lil bro, still junior high, but smart as fuck...

about me

>i am male, 24 yrs...
>the most problematic dude in a family
>unlike my bros, I failed my high school... but manage to go to australia for college and graduate. got degree in hospitality business.
> I keep bringing my family lot of trouble ever since little, i keep smashing all my family car (once for every single one)
> I keep getting accident and money fraud (like 3 times so far)
> I did have jobs, but none of them is a good position like my bro used to have
> have no girlfriend since I brokeup and told my dad "don't ask me to continue your bloodline"
> Im also the only one in family that ever tried drugs, free sex, alcohol, mariyuana..
> im the only one who smoke in family


soon, I will be going to Japan for studying language... all paid by dad, hoping I will help dads business with his japanese buyer... or so is the scenario.

now this is where im being serious.

I love my dad. he is the best human in my family that I respect after god. then followed by my lil bro (a cute lil bro who love my tale being a badass ^^)
he keep loving me despite my mistake, fail, and he blew up a vast, HUGE money for me despite I keep failing. i consider my dad as my only family member.

and here I plan to dissapear... suicide? heck no! it hurts... I did once by slicing my hand when I failed my highschool. it hurts, the bleed won't stop so I secretly go to hospital myself... I told my dad "I have a fight like usual"...

after I arrive at Japan, I will study language and maybe work if someone sponsored me (i have no luck in getting permanent resident is Ausie)... I believe this will fail though, so I plan to go back to my country and work in a remote region/ resort... I won't have any contact to my dad...
its fine if I dont get his money, I used to live on the steet during my time in ausie... in fact, I don't enjoy being rich. TOO MUCH PRESSURE AND EXPECTATION FROM RELATIVES AND SOCIETY!!!
I like eating sandwich other than good 5* restaurant...
I bath with cold water despite having a heat system facility...
I keep yearning motorcycle despite dad keep giving me new car..
I bought clothes online instead of famous brand
I don't even ever use his credit card. just my own debit card..
I never turn on AC when sleeping and sleep naked

I gave all my saving (70% of my wealth) to dad and I know damn sure he don't need that, heck! he can even retired, living like a boss!
its my farewell. he got money for retiring, my bro for the company and bloodline

thanks for reading my awful complain. here is the question...

if you put yourself in my dad's position... in what way will he consider looking for me? I need input so I can counter his method. he cant speak english or japanese so I don't think he will go visiting me when I dissapeared.
of course I delete all my old email and social media... I won't give him my new phone number as well.
all my bank accounts was made so he can withdraw money under my name. luckily, you can have nickname in japan... just like aussie... all my friend call my nickname. they don't even know my real name. lmao...

so yeah, help me trying to counter me guys... and gimme some input as well. thanks

best regards.
your retarded anonymous dude

I beg forgiveness, but it will not be possible for me to answer your question, as in my sight there is a few words that you can make better use. I take the risk of sounding presumptuous, but so be it.

First and foremost, I believe it is hard but don't compare yourself with your brothers or your father. You are yourself and YOU are not meant to be any one else but yourself. Fight to be the best of yourself, to do what you like wile contributing to your society at the same time, both things are important. Not every one can be born a little genius, who the hell will serve me my whisky? I talk this not out of respect, but there are several roles in a society and we don't need only the genius who keep skipping grades. We also need hard workers, people willing to make an effort to be good at what they do, being serving at a bar, being a cop, working at a bank, teaching kids how to surf, etc.

So don't try to be any one else, don't try to be something that you don't want to, because you will fail and regret it. Fight to be what you desire, aim to be better every day, smarter, learn from your mistakes and lead your life in a way that you can be proud of yourself.

Take your time to make peace with yourself, but don't leave your father, that you love so much, in worry. Be frank with him and if you feel that you need to live for yourself, and learn to take care of yourself, in order to grow up., tell him that.

That is my input on the matter, hope it is not too arrogant, and in some one, a perspective that helps you put things in perspective. Best of luck.

oh damn, now that you say it...
I realize...

I plan to disappear so I can try to live my life... so if I manage a come back (being success) I can proudly said to my dad "I can manage on my own, so don't raise me to be whoever you wanna me to be"..
if I fail, lets just say It won't be troubling my dad anymore... I am ashamed for keep bringing trouble to dad...

thus I need help to make my disappear flawless so I can put 100% effort, or so I believe...

I forgot to put my goal instead of keep bitching on the first thread...
I really am suckz at writing stuff... sorry~

If you're gonna disappear, please come back... But whatever you do, put a lot of thought into it.... Don't act hastily. Think what you think is best and follow whatever you want to follow. :) Also, just because you consider yourself a failure does not mean you are. You will still be accepted. If not by your family then by us...

I know times are hard there, so try your very best... :)

Good luck form Cryptic :D

I know you want to disappear but at least just try telling him you plan on leaving and finding your way on your own, and give him a phone number he can contact you at but only to call in an emergency, and then go where ever you want with plenty of distance. I'm only saying this because you are not a trouble and because life is short, by telling him your feelings and striving to be happy you can still keep your family and leave. Please think about this for a while and get more opinions. (Also he can hire private investigators who will most likely track you through any passports you use. I'm not sure the laws of all the countries but I'm pretty sure he can declare you a missing person. There isn't ever any easy way too disappear because no one should, that includes you.)

I know this sounds reeeeeaaaallllyyy stupid, but it works for me. Just do a few random acts of kindness. It makes me happy, and it leaves other people happy. Plus sometimes they end up all confused and stuff, so thats pretty funny too. Just walk around the block and enjoy life. Maybe do something for someone that you should have done a long time ago. I dont know what you'rs into, but just go off and do it. Go to the park, make a sandwich, walk your fish, I dont know. That last one didnt even make sense, but thats what makes people happier somehow. Annyyyyywaaaayyyss, I hope you somehow make your choice. Hopefully you stay, but thats your decision. ;)

Personally, I would treat this as an experience. What you are doing now is something that will make you stronger. To be honest, he could call the authorities and just have them search for you, but you just have to be smart about it if you really want to stay away from your dad.

I'd highly take into consideration what >>2 said, that you should be yourself. You should find something you take pride and and enjoy and make money off of it, if you ever wanted a job. Work hard for it, all of that, and I'm sure you'll be just fine.

Good luck, I'll be cheering you on.

so here I am in Kyoto, Japan guys...
its been more or less 2 months... learning Japanese was awesome after all... Hiragana was fine but Katakana is kinda #similartooeachother#...lol

As far as I know, I feel like living a new life with people & places I barely even know. I delete my FB,Twitter,Instagram long ago before coming to Japan... So I have no Idea whats goin on with others as well...
I withdraw all my saving to Japanese yen, enough for me to live like a king for the rest 6 month or so...
so far, seems there is no problem losing contact with "the past" based on how chilled the sensei in the school are... hopefully it stay this way...
Im keeping everything I did so far on a blog as a diary... starting from landing, sightseeing even problems asking "where is the toilet". reading it again it really feels funny that it cheers me up. its like:

"man, that was so fuckin silly, I really am a hopeless person after all" while drinking a beer with edamame~

reading anonymous people commenting "funny, XD, Lol-so dumb" or "I did the same OMG" "good shit, I'll note that" is kinda a mix feeling of fun and #whothefuckareyoudoinghere?#, but more to the "reminderofmylife". I guess keeping diary is a good thing after all.

It sounds like your dad and family really love you.
Make sure you have something to show them when you go back, friend. :)