>>1 If there would be club for this sort of thing, I would invite you. I guess, there a lot of more people who have the same feeling.
Depression are really hard to overcome. If you can't do it alone there is nothing wrong with looking for help!
Just talking to somebody whom you can trust will help a lot!
Even if this person doesn't know what you're talking about, as long as everything is taken serisously what you say, it should be okay.
If you don't have such a person near you, you can also write down your thoughts.
Self-hatred is...nasty..
Self-destruction is a very strong emotion. I know it, too.
It's even influencing relationships to other people, friends and family.
But self-hatred often has a certain source. maybe rage that is not allowed to express itself or blaming..
I can only say, what I'm doing in such a case where I hate myself very much...
I'm writing down, what's bugging me. I try to analyse why I hate myself - what is my inner critique? When I try to find a solution for the certain problem I wrote down.
To break the cycle of self-hatred, you need to face yourself! - serisously and earnestly! Don't lie to yourself. Be honest.
And Say "Yes" to yourself. If you look around you, there are probably a lot of people who think you are very precious!
that's why YOU should think this way about yourself as well! :)