Actually i don't know how to exprace it since it's a really difcult mater for me but i hope you can advice me , and listen to what i have to say...so :
Me and my bestfreind Noa had knew each oter since birth and i mean it since our parents are freinds and we are nighborths , we have lot in comun and we are those sort of budys who finish each oteres sentence (well you got it we are really super close) , but all changed when we get into high school actally Noa has a really short temper and when he gets angry he goes berserk and when his mom died he really lost it and rape me...
after that each time he's losing it he come to ditresse on doing it with me and it last for the last three years , now we are seniors and he always doing it with me when he loses control , the thing is i love him so much since kidgarden and i just can't tell him to stope using me i don't to loos him...i prefer to sufer alone , cause when he's happy i am , a usful aren't i that's what i though but now it's really hurt so bad that i think am going crazy..
I ASK ALL OF YOU JUSTE ONE THING "HELP" !

Okay, two things:

1) No one is able to take you seriously if you cannot use any sort of grammar or spelling. If you are a senior in high school, it should show through.

2) You can help this young man out by supporting him emotionally and not just through having sex with him. If you do not want to have sex with him, it is considered rape and you need to talk with your family and possibly some sort of counselor to help yourself.

While you have chosen to support him in some sort of way, its not what you want. He's turning into a bully and you might need to cut your losses and leave him. If you are just trolling the board, you are the worst being imaginable.

Find him some help, talk with your family about the problem, if you are having sex against your will it's considered rape. He needs professional help ASAP, you are not helping him in any way just by letting him do whatever he wants. It's imperative you talk with someone older and experienced about this issue, no one here will help you directly to solve the problem simply because no one is capable of it, stop being afraid and act now that you can before things get worse.

>>2 This.

Just tell him how you feel