Things happened, family stuff, my heart aches like a hell lot...I'm beginning to think I have heart ache or something...Mentally, I felt I lost all my purity in love...I felt like I fucking aged 5 years in this whole 1 years...Like I kinda having negative thought of relationship...I even imagining myself switching side, like into the same gender and stuff coz I can only think the opposite side won't be faithful and stuff, though I know reality is everyone is equal despite their gender. So switching side won't really matter...Crap I dun even know what I'm writing anymore. I just need to get this out somewhere...

Shitty grade (but at least I passed), shitty family problem, shitty hope, shitty future-problem that I dunno what to do w/ it, shitty life? Well, not really, at least I live my life till last year happily or something like that...Basically, my happy go lucky life just turned out into living hell, literally...

I'm not thinking to end my life or stupid stuff like that, it's just sometime I hope the pain and every shitty thing can just be resolve and come back into better one...I'm exhausted psychically and mentally...Anyway, if I manage to pass this shitty things, to future me, whenever and wherever I will be. You've passed this fucking retarded situation, congrats! No matter what awaits in the future, U can overcome it...