Hi. Not so long ago my best friend killed himself and honestly it destroyed me. I've been hospitalized for suicide attempts, and at the moment I just want to die. I don't know how to deal with my emotions...

Don't let him die in vain. If he thought he couldn't finish life till the end, it's up to you to live life to the fullest for the both of you. If he really was your best friend he wouldn't have wanted you to choose the same fate he did. He may still be around trying to give you the strength you need.

Thank you usagi-chan. I really needed to hear this.